Why do I feel this way? I wake up everyday disappointed...Because I wake up. I hate feeling this way. But everyday my mind tells me to kill myself...I hate my on being. I hate everything abut me. I feel like I am lost inside of my mind. I am consumed in my thoughts all the time. I try not to show how I am feeling, but lately it has been getting harder and harder. I hate it. I just think about what death feels like, all the time. And I have been having more and more hallucinations...Which is not...