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don't know what to think anymore (trig)

Posted April 8th 2011 at 03:50 PM by Anatidaephobia

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Woke up surrounded by blood. Cut to deep last night. Felt good though all the pain, forgetting things for a while. I need to stop this but i can't. I am scared to let it go.... sh has been my coping stratagy for so long now. I would be lost without it. Yet its getting worse and worse. I am just so messed up right now. Don't know what to do. Don't know ho i am anymore. Just want this all to stop. Just want to sleep forever and never wake up. Never face this mess anymore. I am not strong enough to carry on much longer. I need a hug. Need to feel important. Need to feel everything is going to be ok even just for a few seconds. I am so frightened and so alone right now. Voices screaming tell me to end it. Maybe i should, seems so nice and peaceful. Death has no pain. Death has no suffering. Sleeping sounds so good right now.

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1. 	You do have the strength. You can do this, promise xx
   	Posted April 8th 2011 at 04:50 PM by Palmolive

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