I'm talking on the childline chat thing and I've put the pills away for now.

How did I get this low?

What if I just overdosed now? I have some codeine. I could easily take it. Probably throw it up again, but hey, I deserve that.

Stupid woman. Cancelling my babysitting job without telling me, so I go all the way out there, it's a long way, to find no one in the house. We ring her friend, who rings the kids' stepmum, who tells us they're with the grandparents and the woman doesn't need me anyway.

Would have been nice to fucking tell me.

So thanks for that. Stupid woman.