I don't want your help. I don't want to write a food diary for you. I don't want to stop counting calories. I don't want to stop losing weight.

But I want to feel happier. And you're the only person willing to help.

Perhaps I should go back to the counselor. Perhaps I should get him on my side as well. Because I know that even if I don't have an eating disorder, I have an unhealthy obsession with food. Perhaps I should keep a mood/food diary and show it to him. Perhaps...