39 days. I made it 39 days before I ruined my streak. My goal was two months. But I guess I did better than I have in a while.

The low hit me hard and hit me fast. It started yesterday. I woke up feeling sad just because I exist. The thought of doing work and going through a day and doing what I have to do just makes me want to cry.

Then today it's worse. Second guessing everything and so much anxiety and random stress. Over everything. Sore and just don't know what...

I haven't cut in 25 days. The suicidal thoughts haven't really been there. Sure I've had my low days where I've had the urge to cut. The two days that stick out in my mind, one day I decided to just go to sleep a little early to combat the urges, and one day I didn't have my tool on me so I couldn't.

I've actually felt GOOD lately and I don't know why. I don't know how long it is going to last but it feels so nice to wake up and have more energy to do things and not constantly feel...