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Posted December 18th 2013 at 08:05 AM by i_like_black
Turns out Christmas is a mere week away! Holy shit, that came out of nowhere.
We had our last group for the year today. I learned that the new guy has terminal AML. Explains a lot - like why he's angry a lot - but also makes me mad, because you get close to people in group, and it means some time in the future I'm going to have to try and cope with another cancer death. I don't want any of that shit. I had enough of it with Rebecca and T.A. It was scary enough having a sick brother, fuck having a terminal friend. I don't know how to process this.
On the bright side, no group til January, we actually get some time off. And Debbie's still at work on Tuesday so I'll see her, and then she's away until early January. I'm okay with that.
I think I'm experiencing some weird sort of pre-grief. I'm already angry, I mean you talk to him, he seems healthy enough, but he's obviously not, and just - I don't want to think about it.
Oh, RuneScape has both a World Event and a Seasonal Event happening. It's hard choosing which to participate in.
Yeah.
I just wanted to get that out.
We had our last group for the year today. I learned that the new guy has terminal AML. Explains a lot - like why he's angry a lot - but also makes me mad, because you get close to people in group, and it means some time in the future I'm going to have to try and cope with another cancer death. I don't want any of that shit. I had enough of it with Rebecca and T.A. It was scary enough having a sick brother, fuck having a terminal friend. I don't know how to process this.
On the bright side, no group til January, we actually get some time off. And Debbie's still at work on Tuesday so I'll see her, and then she's away until early January. I'm okay with that.
I think I'm experiencing some weird sort of pre-grief. I'm already angry, I mean you talk to him, he seems healthy enough, but he's obviously not, and just - I don't want to think about it.
Oh, RuneScape has both a World Event and a Seasonal Event happening. It's hard choosing which to participate in.
Yeah.
I just wanted to get that out.
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Christmas does tend to creep up on a person. It seems as if after Halloween, Christmas comes so fast.
But yeah, cancer is shit. It's something really hard to process especially when you have gone through it before, with your brother as well as other people around you. I think that maybe the best thing you can do is sort of make the time the two of you have good. In the meantime I bet it will make him happy to have a friend and you won't have any lasting regrets like "I should have..." if that makes sense? But since you are seeing Debbie on Tuesday maybe you can talk to her about this and she can help you process it?
I think that feeling angry about it is kind of normal if that makes sense? I mean, everyone reacts differently to this sort of news and when the teacher I was close to was terminal, I was basically angry at everything the new teacher did and that nothing more could be done for the longest time. It's something really hard to go through, knowing nothing can be done, but with cancer I've noticed there's not X amount of time a person really has, so maybe he'll surprise you and be here for a while.
But if you ever need to rant about it you can, but if you'd rather not talk about it that's okay too.
Which RuneScape event gives you more of a reward?
Posted December 19th 2013 at 12:53 AM by Ennui.
