Stress and saying goodbye.

My best friend of over 10 years came to town for Christmas and New Year's. She leaves Saturday morning to go back to North Dakota, where she's attending college. It was my first time seeing her since summer, so I was very excited. I spent 2 days at her house, and yesterday she came over here. She just left this evening, but it was a painful goodbye. I love her to death, but with her in college we barely have time to speak anymore. She won't be back until summer.

I'm glad she was able to meet Jon. He came over after school today to meet her and we had a great time together. He went with me when we took her home, and on the ride back home, sleepy bear that he is, he laid down in my lap and I ran my fingers through his hair while he held my free hand and talked to me. He knows exactly how to comfort me. As much as I would've loved to lay in his lap, holding him and petting his head comforts me very much and he knows that. He always takes care of me.

I did have some trouble last night, however. I'd spent 2 days with my best friend, so I took a few minutes last night to give my bear a call. I laid down on the guest room bed so I wouldn't disturb my friend's movie. Technically the guest room is my uncle's room, but he doesn't sleep there, he prefers the couch for some reason. Mom came in and told me to get out, and I said "Can't I just lay on the bed? I'll leave as soon as I'm off the phone." She said no, so I got up and went to the empty living room and laid on the couch. I could hear dad saying I shouldn't even be on the phone, but I ignored it. Mom came in and said to get off my uncle's bed, to which I jokingly replied "I thought I already did." She said she was going to bed and left. I heard dad getting mad again and mom telling him to stop. Just a few seconds after she closed the bedroom door, dad came into the room and said "Why did you even invite her over here tonight?" I said "Dad, please. Let me talk to Jon for-" He cut me off, and left the room pissed at me. I sat up and called after him, "What am I doing wrong?! Please tell me what I'm doing wrong!" It was my 3rd day with her and I wanted a few minutes to myself to speak with Jon. I would've stayed in my room, but I didn't want to talk on the phone in there while she was finishing up a movie. I'd only been on the phone with him for 10 minutes. I don't know why, usually it takes a LOT to really get to me and push me this far, but I quietly started crying. I only cried for about 3 minutes, but still. Jon heard it all and was trying to comfort me. He was irritated with my parents and upset because he couldn't be there to hold me. It always gets to him when I'm upset and he can't be there, because he knows his voice can only do so much for me. I don't know why it got to me so much, maybe it's because I'm under so much stress right now. But it really upset me. I don't understand anymore...