Is it bad that I wanted my dad to sleep all day so that the house could be peaceful and that on my one day off I could have a head break?

I guess it could be, but I am very very tired of all the fighting. He picks on my mom and yells and swears at all of us, it's f***ing ridiculous and I can't even stand being at home with them.


On a positive note

I met a guy who has stolen my heart from right under my nose. He doesn't know it though, we have been...

title is self explanatory..
I have jobs now, and coach 2 soccer teams and I am really tired.
I know for sure I am suffering from depression, just have to have the doctors tell me it for sure. I have all the symptoms. But what can i say.

I just miss having someone who cares, within the last year, I have lost both of the guys I use to talk to about everything.. my boyfriend and my best friend.

I mean I have meet new people but it;s not the same

I need to get out of my f***ing house.. I am going crazy and it's not a good one.. I am expected to be on the ball all the time and I just can't be. My mom is expecting me to keep my cool with her day home kids when the one is almost 3 and can only say mama and dada and then whines about everthing. She expects me to do more than just play on my computer but doesn't want me to go and find a freaking second job because my one job is only giving me 10 hours a week..

I NEED OUT OF MY HOUSE........

My brother and sisters are driving me insane.. I never realized that kids can be so disrecpectful.. it's fucking mothers day and they have to act like doing dishes or switching the laundry is the worst thing ever... I might lose it on them F* * *

frustrated... frustrated... frustrated...

I don't know how else to put how I am feeling... it's an annoying feeling that i can't shake... being home with my family... my dad is driving me nuts... litteraly... it's annoying and dumb and everything

He is a jerk... GAW

Soo Here is a big update... its kinda funny and might be long


So I am actually really happey right now, you have no idea.

I am feeling very confident and I really have no idea why. I think it might just be that everyting is falling linda in to place.

My computer broke 2 weeks ago and I will be getting it back really soon.I move home in 3 nights...

HAPPYYYY

"Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing...