I feel like a horrible person who should just dissapear I lied to everyone on here i dont understand why everyone is being so nice I dont deserve it I deserve to be hated like I hate myself. I just feel so bad. I have so many things going on right now Im scared if I tell someone they wont believe me. Im a horrible person who everyone should hate. I know what I did was horrible. My world is crashing down I feel so sad i dont know how much longer I can take all this. I dont remember the last time...

So I went to bed at about midnight last night. I slept maybe 4 hours total in all the sleeping I did. Problem is, I feel physically ill - like I need to vomit. I haven't vomitted, but I'll feel better once I do.

So my mental state and how I feel physically at the moment are completely at odds with each other. It's pissing me off. If I don't start to feel better physically soon (because mentally I still feel pretty good), I'm going to go to the doctor. It's possible that I'm anaemic...

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Here's why: it's already three and a half hours into Sunday. I have yet to shower and go to bed, and probably won't for another hour or more. HOWEVER, Sunday evening, I MUST be in bed by 10:00pm, in order to get up at 5:30am for work on Monday. (Like my casual job, don't want to fuck it up.)

So Sunday, is most likely, going to be a very weirdly short day. And Sunday night, no matter if I sleep or not, I'll be in bed, at least trying. And probably failing but at least I will have given...

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There's no such thing as exhaustion at this point of the mood spectrum it seems although I have caught my arms/hands shaking a few times - I think that might be a blood sugar thing, because I keep forgetting to EAT. Not because I'm not hungry (I still get hungry) but because my mind is distracted and basically elsewhere. And then I though about what I ate yesterday, and it didn't sound like much.

So after I went for that 17km walk (having eaten only a topper before leaving), I...

Firstly I think I owe you guys an apology. It feels like I've been gone forever. So I guess this is a quick blog just to update you all.

I first took a break from the internet and everything as exams were proving to be very stressful and everything was getting on top of me. Anyway I kinda liked the solitude and it felt like it was what I deserve to fight this hell alone, After exams I guess at first it was curiosity that prevented me reaching out or coming online. I stopped using...

So I went out for a walk last night, left about 10:30pm, got back about 6:30am. So that's around about 8 hours out of the house, but I think it was only 6 hours actually walking, because I stopped at a park for a while, and I kept having rests on the return walk.

Anywho, I just used Google Earth to measure my walk, and the round trip was - wait for it - 17 kilometers! Talk about epic walkies.

Then after I got home I just had about 5 hours sleep. Judy rang me during...

I'm resigning. I'm giving up. I don't care any more. I can't do this. I might drop out of school. I don't know. I just want to leave everything behind.

By the looks of things, I have a regular following of blog readers. I wonder who they are.

Anywho I'm gonna need to put on my thermals to go walkies tonight, it's still really cold. No, I'm NOT going on the motorway. I'm just going to walk up the main road until I am sick of it. And if that takes until I get into town, whatever. I don't have to be anywhere until 12:30pm tomorrow, and that's Lambie Dr, so I can reasonably walk there from wherever I walk to.

I did end...