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The Real Me
Posted September 19th 2012 at 01:52 AM by monkey01
Updated September 19th 2012 at 03:11 PM by monkey01
Updated September 19th 2012 at 03:11 PM by monkey01
i think everyone deserves to know the real me so here i go this will be totally honest no lies.
My name is Chantelle i am 16 i am currently struggling with anorexia SH and suicidal thoughts. I meet with a theripist and my guidance counsellor 3 times a week I dont remember the last time I was truly happy. when I say im Fine or im okay the truth is im not i am breaking slowly i have been taking it second by second for the longest time. I hate myself I wish i was never born. I cry myself to sleep everynight. I feel like I am a waste of space. I feel like im Not needed. I wish I was dead. everyday I try to be strong for everyone else. I know I need help but sometimes I am to scared to ask for it. I dont know how much more I can take I really dont. If there is anything else you want to know please PM me.
My name is Chantelle i am 16 i am currently struggling with anorexia SH and suicidal thoughts. I meet with a theripist and my guidance counsellor 3 times a week I dont remember the last time I was truly happy. when I say im Fine or im okay the truth is im not i am breaking slowly i have been taking it second by second for the longest time. I hate myself I wish i was never born. I cry myself to sleep everynight. I feel like I am a waste of space. I feel like im Not needed. I wish I was dead. everyday I try to be strong for everyone else. I know I need help but sometimes I am to scared to ask for it. I dont know how much more I can take I really dont. If there is anything else you want to know please PM me.
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You definitely aren't a waste of space at all. You make more of an impact on this world than you even know and we are all here to help you get though the bad parts and to the good. I know that italy be difficult but you have already made a big first step by letting people see the real you and there is a lot more good where that came from. Your life has meaning and I know that one day you can be happy again.Posted September 19th 2012 at 02:11 AM by Ennui.
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Hey Chantelle,
I want you to know that you most definitely are not a waste of space. You are a beautiful person, you have a reason to be here, and so many people would be devastated if anything were to happen to you. Everyone has a reason to be here, you just have to keep pushing forward and try to find that reason. Try to stay optimistic, and remember that you're not alone.
Posted September 19th 2012 at 02:11 AM by Koharuchan
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Hey, Chantelle!
Well, you're certainly not a waste of space. I remember what it felt like to be 16. It's tough when you're feeling like an adult at some times, but at other times, you feel like a helpless child again. It's hard to figure everything out, but with support, I'm sure you'll get back on your feet and find your place in this world. =)
A while back, I asked about a therapist (I'm guessing you lied about seeing one). Would you consider doing that now? You could start off by telling your school counselor (or a teacher you trust), or even just ANY adult you look up to and think would be willing to listen/help. I don't know what things are like at home (if your parents are supportive or neglectful/abusive), but I'm guessing they would want to know if you were struggling with all of this. They'd want you to get help. It seems like you're struggling all the time, and that's hard to deal with on your own. Maybe it's time to talk to a professional, or an adult who can take you to see a professional.
You're not alone in your struggles - we're all here to support you until you can get the help you need! =)
Posted September 19th 2012 at 02:40 AM by PSY
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I'm sorry you're struggling at the moment lovely, but I want to remind you that these things aren't the only things that make you who you are. Remember that things like your hobbies, your interests and personality matter too and that you should focus on these sometimes, just so you have some positives to remember. You can do this lovely. xxPosted September 19th 2012 at 04:37 PM by Everglow.
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Chantelle, I am so proud of you for posting this. I know it's hard but you know that we're all here for you. Btw, you're beautiful. Such a beautiful smart girl like you shouldnt have to feel the effects of depression. I am so sorry that you are going through this and I hope that you feel better. -hugs- I love you, Chantelle and I'll always be here for you.Posted September 20th 2012 at 12:03 AM by Reign.
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[FONT="Georgia"][SIZE="2"][COLOR="SlateGray"]This must be very difficult for you to deal with. Keep yourself into a well balanced diet. I know when I say that wont help but I'm hoping it will help a bit. Keep talking to therapist every 3 weeks. Don't be afraid to ask for help or see someone about this because your just like everyone else who deserves support and advice. Chin up and think through that things will get better. The best thing to make you feel like your not alone in this problem is to tell your family, adult you really know and trust that way you feel like you got enough support and feel cared for. I really do hope you feel better. No one or even you should go through this bad situation. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]Posted September 21st 2012 at 01:29 PM by Cassie999
