I'm trying to keep smiling and happy and all that other festive shit. Really, I am.
Just feels like so much pressure. Don't be at all bothered by that horrible dream, just get on with the day. Clean up, eat, breathe, wash, work. Do everything that needs done.
Come about 4pm it's like everything just slows down and there's nothing left to do.
There's a card for my grandad outside my room for my brother and I to sign. Dad wants us both to walk down and give it to him. I don't...

We found a house. Its cheep. Its not far away. Everything is great......except...... its small. but its perfect

What is wrong with him?!
How dare he ask me about my 4yr relationship with Bryan?!
How can he ask me how I got over him?!
The boy who made me sucidal.
The boy who made me cut.
The boy who made me starve myself.
The boy who made me depressed.
The boy who made me cry forever.

The boy who made me stronger.
The boy who made me wiser.
The boy who made me smarter.
The boy who made me realize promises can be broken....

...

I feel:

• Hopeful
• Scared
• Embarressed
• Excited
• Thick
• Fat
• Ugly
• Confused
• Desperate
• Strong
• Helpful
• Sad
• Useful
• Disappointed
• Content

Finals today and tomorrow and Friday.
I'm going to put in my best effort.
Can I do this?

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As it gets closer to Christmas, my family reminds me how I ruined their Christmas last year, and how I better not ruin it this year.

Recap: Last year. I was angry. I was bitter. I was depressed. But mostly angry. I withdrew myself from everyone in the family. Christmas morning everybody went to open their gifts. I tried to stay in bed, but I got pulled out. They wanted to take pictures to see our faces. My sister Katie got money, my sister April got perfume and her special movie,...