I know I'm only fifteen. I know that I have quite some time left to figure this stuff out. I know that labels are just made by society and things change, that you don't always fit into one label. I was talking to someone on here tonight and he really helped me with that and I really appreciate that. This person hopefully knows who I am talking about, and if he stumbles across this, thank you so much.
I really would love to know who the fuck I am, though. A lot of the time I think that I am...

So, Jose broke up with me laat night. In a text message.
He said we could date after New Years but we need a break because his parents tradition.
What tradtion?!
I just said "k".
I don't think I want to be with him again. I know I do not want to talk to him.

But you guys all know Alan, Bryans (Ex of 4 years) best friend?
Yeah, he said he like me yesterday.
We talked about so much. I never stopped liking Alan. Duh. He was the only...

I don't know how many people are going to actually read this shit, but oh well, posting it anyway. Good way to get out how I feel.

I went to my therapy intake on Wednesday. The lady that did my intake won't even be my actual therapist. She was okay enough, anyway, nice enough. Before we could even get in to see her, we had to do a shitload of paperwork. Actually, what I had to do wasn't that long, basically circle what applied to me and how long ago I felt that way (like in the past...

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Its Posh we are and Posh we feel
United we all stand
We're telling you
Support the blues!
The best team in the land wooooah!
Peterborough, Peterborough, Peterborough
La La La

Blame Hollie (Ghost.) for this JK..
But it is AMAZING!

You'll love this and you know it!

Can't believe I'm not on staff anymore
Sad but necessery.
And don't have to worry about my spelling
yeah...

UGH! I've been waiting so long to be a HelpLINK Mentor.. and, it's only been 8 days. And, I'm thinking about quitting? Wth? I don't know if I should or not. I just feel like the pressure to be perfect at it. And, I know I'm not. Everyone is just sooo much better. I thought I would be amazing. But, like I said... everyone is soo much better. It sucks.

Tomorrow I'm hopefully going to Jon's house. If that happens, our funfilled activities will most likely include cuddling, kissing, and a great big nerf gun war!

We are not a normal couple at all. I can't wait to go over there and go crazy with the nerf guns. And if he completely destroys me in the nerf war, which he probably will, at least we can sit down in his big squishy video game chair and I can beat his ass in a round of Katamari Damacy. Sounds like fun to me!

Baby Face-Nobody knows it but me.

Just singing' it over and over.

I don't know anything anymore..
I'm drifting.
Going deep withing myself.
Outcasting myself from everyone.
I want to be alone.
I m tired of putting my faith in people.
I am closing my heart and emotiona and ny ties to people.
Just me now.

thought that this would never happen, but it did. i finally broke down last night. January 1st, im leaving. I dont know where. But im leaving. Anywhere is better than here.