So, I deffinately like G., I dont like M. anymore, but now I also like G ans M's friend. Im messed up, I cant stay on one person. seriously, someone could be sweet to me, and Ill start likeing them. Then Sumpad had an "episode" as I like to call them. Oh well. I was there for her, and she was there for me. Im glad we is friends, cant wait till Nashville...

I am going to do this again

Self harm NO more

8-13-06 to 2-19-10

Grave stone self harm you are NO longer welcome in my life Christ RULES and YOU are NOT part of it.

I want to get away from here right now. I am so sick of HIM. He came back again last night. I already have insomnia, he's just making it worse. I've tried to do everytbing I possibly can to keep him out. The fucking snow was helping for awhile. Should I just runaway from all of this? Cuz I'm ready too. Would that be a good thing? I think it would be alot of the time. And the thought of it just makes me want to do it more and more. I want to be happy and not have to be afraid for the rest of my life....

Hello there all. Here are some links to some funny comedy segments in an attempt to bring some laughter and smiles on your faces. Please just relax and don't force yourself to laugh just relax and watch and try to enjoy.

1. ) Coach Hines Links - These links are about a school coach who disturbs the peace of the school. He is a sports coach.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LaSEuLDyQhw : In this segment coach Sandoval Hines attempts to know which student is using performance...

OK.. me and my best friend broke into our old middle school and eventually got caught and had marijuana in our pockets we might get kicked out of school and i have a meeting with my school tomorrow i am a good student so they might give me a chance but what am i going to do if they kick me out of school..i need school if school was open yesterday we probaly wouldent have gotten into this mess so are there any alturnatives for school if they dont let me stay and what can i do to let them know i am...

Uhum, uuhuuuum!

That was me coughing to get you guy's attention
Sooooooo, V-day tomorrow, eh people ? Oh, how wonderful...not -___-
Valentine's day is a day that I don't particularly enjoy. I'm not the cuddling, "i love you", marry me - type of girl, so all the crazy 'cute' things that couples do on this singular date...eh *eye-roll*
I'm not a pessimistic lover, I am just not a couple's girl. Oh, and I SOOOOO don't mind spending Valentine's...

Saturday, February 13th

The past week I haven't spent too much time in the Word or in prayer, maybe a few chapters a day and 15 minutes in prayer a day. Today, I haven't read anything and have barely prayed. I fell into pornography twice (I think), and am just stuck wondering:

How can I be saved?

It is by faith alone, yet salvation is a saving from sin and though I hate sin, I do not forsake it. To me this is an indication that perhaps the Spirit is not at...

I'm sick of medical assessments! They make me cry alot. They all say the same questions and i always answer the same. I wish they could just ask my psychiatrist. I feel so upset. I've been seeing a mental health nurse for over a year and still havent been diagnosed. They dont know whats wrong with me. This scares me so much. I wish i was dead so i wouldnt have to live this way..

I have to go to the library 5 days a week now. I'm not trusted at home. The library scares me so much. The people that come into the library stare at me as if they can see right into my head. I'm sick and tired of it. I have panic attacks, frequent headaches and pains in my legs and arms. i want out now!!

blashhhhhhhhhhhhhh, fml cuz of fams and breakups