Oy !

All the holiday craziness has gone by soooo quickly, did any of us even realised that its over ? I certainly didn't !
Oh well, back to structured life I guess.
I surely miss all the liberty and coolness of the holidays though...no more dancing until 4 a.m., no more sleeping in until noon - ahhh, will I ever even survive going back to school after experiencing such a laid-back lifestyle Oh sure I will ; we all have got to.
Anyway, I spent an awesome...

so, there have been a lot of things that i've never, ever talked to anyone about. there are so many people i know that think they know every thing about me, how wrong they are is what they don't know. truth is, i'm afaird. afraid to talk, afraid to tell anyone, just what all i've had in this life. most people i know would just turn their back and call me a liar, maybe start some rumors, but, i guess that's why i'm afraid, wouldn't you be? i grew up as the shy quiet fat girl, that read too much and...

I dont want mum to put my cat down! i dont want her to die! she's my best friend... :cry: i hate mum.. what more can she take away from me?!

My mum has been away for 2 days now. I still have no idea where she is! Theres no food in the house and frezzing cold. I feel like shes abandoned me. I'm useless! I can't do anything right! I just make her cry! I dont mean to... I'm worried. I'm running out of medication and i dont have a car in order to get to the pharmacy... I hate this..

I'm sick of being alone. My mum is constantly going to her boyfriends house leaving me here all by myself and my sister goes to her friend's house. The day before yesterday i had to sleep on a carpetless floor and had to improvise use my woolie jumnper and long skirt and a bottom sheet and my petticoat as a pillow and my dressing gown as a blanket while in the other room my sister had a mattress, 2 pillows and a large blanket. Mum didnt even bother to see if i was ok, all she cares about is her...

Stupid mother! She can't accept the fact that i want to have a social life for once. I want to go to a club for the first time in my life but, annoyingly, im not allowed since she fears i'll get into drugs, get drunk or get pregnant. Which is highly unlikely god dang it! i'm anti-drugs, i hate the taste of alcohol and i don't want to be pregnant anyway. My sister is 15 and shes allowed to go to clubs and get drunk! It's always the sensible ones who get left behind...

Oh hai there fellow blog followers! It seems like I haven't blogged in ages. Sure, it has been 16 long busy days...but I've gone longer than that without feeling weird about it. For some reason, it seems as though I haven't talked to you guys in too long. I miss TeenHelp!

Well, I guess the reason I haven't blogged is because nothing exciting has happened. I mean yeah Christmas, but there's not much to say there. Family, presents, turkey dinner...same 'ol. I guess I just wanted to make...

I guess no one had anything weird happen to them, haha.
I sprained my left wrist yesterday. It hurts a little but I should be ok in a couple of days. I just wanted to check in so...ttfn!

...I've been thinking about my dad today, mostly because I have to go to his house tomorrow. I'm really not looking forward to it. Why? Because he is always passed out drunk on the couch, and recently, he might have been taking pain medication from many different doctors to get high, although no one will tell me the truth because they think I can't handle it, even though I have known for almost 4 years that my dad is a jerk and that I should have nothing to do with him. I want to cut all ties with...