What's the point..I reach out to people, I ask for help and I get nothing... If i'm lucky someone talks to me and just has a go at me over trivial little things. Sometimes I wonder why i bother
Maybe i'm meant to be alone, maybe this is how things are supposed to be, maybe i'll get used to it.
I should just stop trying, things are easier that way.

You're stupid and pathetic and everyone would be better without you Charli. All you ever do is ruin everything for everyone, your family and "friends" remind you enough. No one would notice if you dissapeared and most definitely wouldn't care. There's no point anymore, no point to anything especially when you're not wanted..

Well three days until christmas...I'm not excited at all :/
I have such a busy week, working christmas eve until 6:30 and the back at work again boxing day at 6:30am -_-. Going to be working all the sales, i've been given a lot more hours than i'm contracted and i've somehow got to fit in revision for my january exams.

Busy, Busy, Busy, Just breathe..

Finally December, everyones just talking about christmas. It's just going to be stressful and full of family arguments, reminds of how much everyone hates me and why we don't see the family except for christmas.

Mom's just been having a go at me all day, reminding me how worthless i am.
I don't see a point in anything, in christmas, people just disappoint and they wonder why I won't trust anyone. Being alone is easier and it's not like I get a choice lately anyway, just shut up...