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Fight it...you can do it Charli...or not.. *Triggering
Posted April 27th 2011 at 04:24 PM by Riddikulus
Last night i just lay there, my head was spinning; screaming at myself inside my head. 'Come on Charlotte, you don't need to do this, ODing and cutting is not the only opition...your being stupid...fight it...fight it...you can do it' I tried so hard, i really did, but then there is always the other side of me, telling me to do it, things are too bad at the moment, i can't handle it anymore, no one would care....stop being pathetic...
Like I was arguing with my emotions, i can't fight the feelings and the urges anymore, they are stronger then me, I'm a failure..
I tried to tell my mom, she shook me off, it hurt so much... i just want her to notice and care..
It comes to something when i give up trying to control myself, i just wanted to lie there and let my life collapse around me... and watch no one notice.....
Like I was arguing with my emotions, i can't fight the feelings and the urges anymore, they are stronger then me, I'm a failure..
I tried to tell my mom, she shook me off, it hurt so much... i just want her to notice and care..
It comes to something when i give up trying to control myself, i just wanted to lie there and let my life collapse around me... and watch no one notice.....
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Sweetie, i know its hard but you are stronger than this, you may not realise it but you are a strong,beautiful amazing person
I believe in you and you can always text me if you're struggling, anytime day or night 
I can assure you that you are not pathetic, It's hard and you are struggling. There is nothing pathetic about that. An lots of people would care. I know i would for certain!
Sorry about your mom. Maybe she had something else on her mind or was trying to do something at that time. Try asking to talk to her another time. See if that changes anything.
You can beat this sweetheart and i am always here <3
Love you <3 xxxPosted April 27th 2011 at 05:04 PM by Anatidaephobia
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I am really proud that you tried so hard to fight it Charli, I know its hard when everything is so hard right now, overwhelming you but you *can* do it.
You proved that you were strong today and I am really happy that you tried so hard... Thankyou Charli <3 you did good. ^^Posted April 27th 2011 at 05:05 PM by Guardian_Angel
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Hey Love! <3
Never say that you can't do something, you CAN do anything that you want to do. It was a huge step to fight yourself emotional, it can be heard to deal with emotions and urges sometimes they just are overwhelming. You tried though and it is the effort that counts. You are strong good job babe <3Posted April 27th 2011 at 08:25 PM by Jovial.
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Charli, babygirl that's half the battle right there. Telling yourself the truth and trying to stop. I am beyond proud of you. I'm sorry that your moms not being around for you honey. Just remember i'm only a PM away anytime you need a friend <3Posted April 27th 2011 at 08:30 PM by Blair
