I'm the biggest fuck-up ever.
I hate what I'm doing.
Breaking everyone.

I do love him.
I mean, I'm pretty much only still here for him.

But I love her too.
She's beautiful and understands me.

What have I done?
I've fucked it up with him.
I kissed her.
I fucking kissed her and then said she could be my girlfriend.

I'm a two-timing bitch.

He was, is the best thing that had happened to...

Took enough pills to make me throw up...
Cutting like crazy...
Music so loud I hear a buzzing without it...
I am a fucked up mess.

Got an exam later and another tomorrow
Today's can fail. French. Who cares.
Tomorrow R.S. Want to do it at A-Level.
Could do with an A.
On track for a C.
Can't concentrate. Can't revise.
Destined to fail.
i hate failing. but i am a failure.

Cut again
Already regret it
Would've exploded if I didn't though
Let so many people down
Want to cut more
Know I shouldn't
Want to scoff my face with food
Tied my hands together to try stop myself
Just hate me.

Great timing there period.
Could've waited 2weeks surely?
No.
Revision not happening now, just pain.
Thanks for that.

Crying again.
Third time today.
Live for one thing. Want it to go away and leave me.
I just want to be left along to die. And not feel guilty!