Nobody to talk to -
August 5th 2025, 02:04 AM
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Seeing I dont have anybody to talk to I decided maybe I'd just throw it in here. Everything always feels horrible, my parents dont love me, I dont have friends, Im too lazy to get a job, Im too ugly to get a boyfriend, Im too stupid to grow up. I'll never grow up, I'll make sure of it. Cause I'm just a stupid spoiled rich kid who always wastes everyone's time and resources. I dont care if people would be sad if I died, I dont care if they'd live with guilt, because at the end of the day Im just a horrible person and a loser. Lately everything is always about this, if someone takes a pic with me I just think of how they will look at it later when Im gone, If I say something I wonder if the person will come back to it later, if I buy something I wonder who will it go to once Im gone. At this point Im just a walking dissapointment that everyone will remember by her death, because she did nothing good in life to be remembered. And people will hate me for not trying, as they should. I had every oportunity and I wasted them because thats all I am, a parasite. This may sound agressive or delusional for someone normal and sane reading this, but it feels like a constant reality I can never escape of. Im sorry.
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