Why is No One in My Family Right in the Head?

[Ballsack]

My dad's side of the family is so much worse than my mom's side of the family because at least my mom's family still act like a family who look out for each other. Here? They barely even acknowledge us. In my mom's side of the family, even if we haven't met for a year or two we still help each other, whether it'd be with finances or just small stuff like buying things because they remind us of our cousin. In here they're embarrassed to be seen with their cousins, what the fuck???

For college I'm living with my aunt and she and her kid is so weird. Not only does her kid cares about animals more than humans specifically his family, but his mom also treats him like he's a pet basically. She would forget to feed him and instead she would go out to party and have sex with her boyfriends. Now, don't get me wrong I'm not against that, but when you ended up neglecting your kid just to party and shit? That's fucked up. And I think she might be an alcoholic because every bottle in the house that's used for storing cold water is a vodka bottle. And yes, it's water not vodka. And every time I make a mistake they would crash out and make me & my mom's life a living hell whether it'd be by terrorizing us with wild animals or making a huge mess of the house. But when they fucked up they act stupid? I don't believe in hell but damn they better be sent there immediately.

Not only that, but my grandma (rip) used to intentionally break my mom's stuff and pray that my mom and dad would divorce. And she also would criticize my mom for disciplining me or making me go to school. Mind you, my mom doesn't hit me when discipling me, she would just tell me no or make me apologize and fix my mistake. That's it. Of course as time goes on she became more emotionally abusive but that's not the main thing. I wouldn't know where I'd be right now if my mom didn't "force" me to learn how to speak English and math that was way too advanced for a six year old, I'd probably be dumb as hell if she listened to all the times I didn't want to go to school. And my grandma would also give out my mom's stuff, like expensive plates from Italy that could maybe be around a couple hundred ish now, I'm not sure about the exact price but I do know that selling them would help me pay off my college.

And my dad is the cherry on top. He just got fired because they're downsizing or whatever but we still need money to pay for my college and my brother's school, but even after all of that he still would rather do some low paying job rather than working with my mom and listening to her advice. In fact, it's so bad that I'm basically filling in the role of the wife in this household. Wife, not mother because I can't take care of my brother even if I try, I get tired too easily. So usually the wife is the one managing the money but because he hates me mom so much he made me manage the money. And he always gave us so little money too. Like it's enough for a month if it was just me, but I gotta manage it for my mom and brother too. And because my brother is autistic that means he has different needs than me that can't be swapped out with something cheaper. Like food for example, it's gonna take a while to get him used to a cheaper alternative but sometimes me and my mom are too tired to get him to try the alternative that we just gave him the original more expensive option. It sucks. I'm so embarrassed that I couldn't hang out at cafes and such with my friends. I also want to experience the silly frivolous spending that people my age do. I get so jealous when I heard them go abroad or went somewhere that I know cost a lot. I'm thinking of tutoring once I get the gist of my college schedule and hopefully I could be a teaching assistant cause I heard that they get paid and it would help with getting future jobs

[Dude111]

Im sorry buddy...

Things in the world are quite bad...

[~Misguided Ghosts~]

It sounds like you have so much going on, and I'm sorry about that. Maybe try and keep to yourself where you're staying now or with your dad's family. I know it's hard and it would be a lot better if they were easier to be around. But don't be embarrassed about your current situation, even finances. It's not your fault and you're doing the best you can with the situation you're in.

[Dude111]

I hope your a little happier today my friend