Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

I get home for the weekend and we have no cable, no internet, I'm ready to kill you after 5 minutes of you being here even though I haven't seen you in 2 years, and I don't get to sleep in either day. Then when I get back I actually have to do WORK. This weekend SUCKS

I hate you, I absolutely hate you and I don't hate a lot of people. But I hate you.

But do you see me acting like a total bitch towards you and criticising every single god-fucking-damn thing you say? A simple "hi" and being civil won't kill you, even if you hate the person! If my worst enemy (other than you, of course ) said hi to me, I'd say hi back. That'd be all I'd say to them, most likely, but that's because I'm no fucking bitch like you!

[nothereanymore]

Some people are just really freaking rude.
You want advice but you want it said a certain way? So you just want someone to tell you what you want to hear, then? ...okay. lolol

[Chris]

I just can't win with you, can I? I can never be up to your expectations - no matter how hard I try.

[hocus pocus]

What's that? More arguing? It looks like I'm going to hide in my room for a while then.

"I don't know what to do with the children! You come home like this, and you.."

"Would you rather me not fucking come home at all?"

We left after that.

[Jlkin251]

No, mom. I'm not normal like you tell your friends and family. I'm not a balanced kid that loves and lives life to the fullest. I'm a fucking terrible person who's been cutting herself for a year now. I'm not a straight A student, you'd know that if you'd pay more attention to my grades. Ever since my depression returned and took its turn for the worse, it affect my grades, and life. So please mom, shut the fuck up and listen for once.

[Broken Constellation]

They changed the school grading system and now it's harder to get a freaking A and I WANT to get into a great college and two of my teachers are absolutely horrible and the stress is literally KILLING me.

[Chris]

Sometimes, I doubt that you feel the way you say you do, or act the way you do (in comparison to others). That you make up everything that comes out of your mouth and that your goal is to destroy the one person who absolutely loves you. I don't want to be the sideline, go-to, type of guy in your life. I want to be the only guy you think about when you wake up, and the only you love, unconditionally.

But, me being someone who understands the difference between fantasy and reality, I understand that day will never come.

[Kate*]

I REALLY don't want to go to this class anymore! Why? It's the third time I've been stuck in it and the more you make me do it the less I care. Just pass me and let me get on with my life! I know I belong here, but I can't show it anymore because I'm SO OVER IT that I couldn't care less. And ENOUGH with this group s*** and discussion crap! I have NEVER gotten full participation points in my entire life, forcing me to do it isn't going to change that and unless you can prove to me that participation will make or break me in the PROFESSION I don't see the point and I will not force myself to change to earn something I know I will never get that doesn't make a d*** difference in the real world anyway.

I'm going to fail again and my program will be permanently over, I can feel it.

[hocus pocus]

Please, explain to me. Explain why people do this. Why innocent people; people innocent only at the time of birth, go bad. Why do they do these things? Help me understand.. please.

[Lumos.]

Why did i eat so much? Ugh i'm so freaking stupid.

[hocus pocus]

If you fucking continue to make fun of my brother, you grown adult, you will find yourself in for a damned earful. Adult. Grow the fuck up before I help you grow up.

[Kate*]

What part of I DON'T CARE STOP TRYING TO FORCE SHIT ON ME do people not understand?!?!?! and why do we have to do that? The last 2 RA's didn't. They did things the way I liked them, they bothered me only when they needed to, never more than once in a day and then they left me the fuck alone. I was never pressured to do anything I didn't want to. I'm 25 years old for crying out loud stop treating me like I'm 8 I do not need a babysitter.

So, even if you find proof that the equipment is malfunctioning, if our assignments don't record it's still our fault?! Either way, we're the ones who end up paying for it. If you would keep the equipment more up to date we wouldn't have this problem (and yes I'd be willing to pay for it if it meant not having my work get screwed up)

[hocus pocus]

Want to know something? This world is disgusting. It's filled with people who are assholes, who aren't even human. Because they bully, and ridicule, and murder and kill people. And that's terrible. I fucking hate this world.

[mindflower]

ASSHOLE JUST BREAK UP WITH ME YOU KNOW YOU FUCKING WANT TO!

[hocus pocus]

Wait, can I scream again?

Seriously. Like, do you have to call and piss her off? Knock the shit off. I don't even know anymore.

[Chris]

Bullying someone doesn't make you 'cool'. Grow up.

[Broken Constellation]

Why aren't I enough? Why do you have to be with other girls while you claim you like me, and "miss me".
This is why I'm so negetive about myself.
I never feel like I'm enough.
I will NEVER be enough.

[Tigereyes]

I can't fucking do this anymore. I'm so sick of everything..... Just everything. I hate my life. I have nothing to even hope for.

[JenniLou]

Seriously, if you know I like you and you don't can't you just TELL me? It would sure save me several years of pain; waiting for you and you never come, not knowing for sure, only to be forgotten altogether. All the while causing me to hold back and block out other potential boyfriends?

[nothereanymore]

I can't believe this is what you've settled for.

[hocus pocus]

I'm kind of speechless. I just wish she'd stop bothering me, but whatever. It's not like I'm useful anyway! I think you're talking about the wrong Cassie.

[Broken Constellation]

You make me so happy,
Yet you put me through so much pain..

[THE FAPMAN]

Damn. They erased my Satan post...
NOT NICE TEENHELP, NOT NICE...
*scream*...
and since this is a screaming thread i will post A METAPHORE THAT DOESENT INCLUDE TEENHELP:

Fuck you all. (im reffering to the archerus sontrus race in seventh ring of the second constellation...

[Tigereyes]

I hate myself. I'm so STUPID! why do I always have to be such a failure? Why?! I feel so worthless. My life isn't ever going to go anywhere so why should I even bother? I can't do this. I may be done being strong.

[hocus pocus]

I'm such a bitch. See, now I'm triggered. And I'm angry. And nervous. I feel bad for my little brother because people fucking torture him at school and I don't think he can take it anymore!

[Chris]

Am I not good enough to be in your life everyday? Clearly we only see each other when you WANT to see me. Sideline guy for 4 years and yet, I'm still not use to it.

[mindflower]

He fucking took off my door. He. Fucking. Chucked. My phone at a wall and smashed it into pieces. He RAIDED my room. He banned me from wearing bracelets and made me strip down naked. He yelled and screamed at me in my darkest hour. He grounded me for life, threatened to take away my music extra curricular activities. He ripped the truth from my throat that I'm not a virgin and my friends all want me to disappear. He repeated multiple times that he was going to take me to the hospital and put me in a rubber room and leave me there. But maybe worse, he didn't have the fucking guts to understand a single word that came out of my mouth. Even if half of them were lies... Sometimes my dad can be a sweetheart, but right now? Not even a fucking fraction.
I miss Patrick, he is all I had and now I can't talk to him and will probably never get to see him, I'm worried so much about him because God knows if he's cutting right now or trying to find out what's wrong with me or out somewhere getting stoned... I'm really fucking triggered because of all of this but I keep reminding myself that if I hadn't told my parents I was going to kill myself, it would've been a lot bumpier of a road. But this is too fucking much. Maybe I did want to die last night, or maybe I didn't. But I do now.

FUCK ALL OF THIS SHIT.

[hocus pocus]

Do you have to ruin everything? Why can't we have a nice moment when we do things that normal families do, huh? Everything is upsetting as it is right now without your fucking commentary. But you wouldn't understand. You're not even close to her. You don't know how upsetting it is. I can't have a nice moment without it being ruined.

[Catharsis.]

>be on facebook
>send friend message on chat
>friend sees message
>friend appears offline
>sigh

[Chris]

You clearly have no clue what you are doing. If you are going to take charge of something, make sure you know how to do it first.

[Kate*]

Just as I thought, you're an attention-seeker who thinks you know everything when you really know NOTHING. I don't apply that label lightly either. Why don't you LEARN about something before commenting on it. I'm just sorry that people will listen to you because you're WRONG!

Will someone please remind me why the hell I wanted to do this? All I can see happening is this going to hell in a handbasket while I end up worse than I would've been if I had just kept my damn mouth shut. If he's available I can at least ask him for that (and about that), but unless she wants to bring him in or ask him about it, I'm not bothering him with this AGAIN. After the innocent e-mail I sent her, I have a clue as to how this is going to go and I just want to not do it, but I know I need to. What if I'm afraid for good reason? What if I really don't belong here? Or what if I'm just being paranoid? I don't know what to believe anymore. Can I rewind to last June and start everything over?

I was NOT being paranoid, I AM 2 seconds from being thrown out of here for the same thing that got me last time, and she's harder about that then even the bitch was. Meeting with Dr. M again tomorrow (even though I swore I wouldn't waste his time with this again). I feel like I'm waiting for someone to look me in the eye and tell me to get out, but the second they do it, my whole world collapses. I don't know what to believe anymore. And I forgot an envelope for this, more points off for me, not that I can afford it. At least he doesn't make me want to cry, so I can get through tomorrow without wanting to do something that will act as proof that I really don't belong here.

[PrimadonnaQueen]

I wasted an entire year on you.
And ENTIRE year.
I will no longer think about you. I will no longer give a fuck about you.
To think I actually worried about you...

This is the final bye, you ungrateful motherfucker.

[THE FAPMAN]

Oh shit. So much negative energy around here... Sooo... I need to fit in... Lets see...
FUCK YOU ENGLISH TEACHER FOR GIVING ME THE PAPERS FOR HOMEWORK, AND 20 SECONDS AFTER THE DOORBELL!!! FUCK YOU!!!

[mindflower]

Make it all about yourself why don't you.
Yeah, you're crazy... you're not the one who almost spent the weekend in a rubber room....

It isn't always about you. Sorry to burst your bubble, but you aren't the center of my universe.

[Catharsis.]

I'm such a failure. I'm a terrible, terrible person. It took me almost 45 minutes to reply to her, because my fucking email wouldn't work. I hate myself so much right now.

Ate nothing but half an orange since this morning. Bad headache, can't concentrate, but as long as I'm not fat anymore eventually, I don't care, lalala.

[nothereanymore]

School makes me hate life.
And everyone.
And me.

[hocus pocus]

I'm tired of how you're treating me. I don't like your sarcasm, just please leave me alone. I'm tired of you clearly pretending to care about me; you're using me. I'm not fucking stupid.

I'm doing good hiding today. I just can't mention that word, or anything related to it. She won't get it, and I don't want her to. I know she hasn't even looked at what I showed her, anyway. Which is fine, I don't need help.

Stupid, stupid, stupid! You just pissed away four and half hours doing what? Nothing, basically! Ugh.