Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

I honestly feel like crap. I hope my friend's end up going out but, at the same time, I am kind of hoping that they do not.

I need to get out but I also just want to stay in

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Why are you yelling at me! Please stop.

[nothereanymore]

Because I don't already have disorders I'm struggling to control, let's add dermatillomania to the list.

Kind of want to hang out with friends
Kind of want to curl up in a ball and sleep
Kind of want to die
Kind of want to run away
Kind of want to fade away

I think I'm going to leave.

[Markus]

I can't help but stress over my future.

[TheAtomicBlade]

Make it stop. I don't need my brain to turn on me right now. Just stop it. And you're not helping my stress levels

[Silvan]

When it comes to interactions and relationships with people, I'm always jumping to conclusions waaay too quickly. In both negative and positive ways. Someone texted me? Wow, they really do care, maybe after all it's more than friendship. They text my female friend too? Shit, they probably think of me as no more than an acquaintance, maybe they even like her...
It's like a constant pendulum, I hate it

I feel like it would likely be better and less stressful for everyone around me if I were dead.

I don't know how to get myself to acknowledge that it is not true. Like, if I died I am sure people would be upset but I keep thinking "Yeah but their stress would be gone"

[Clarent]

Missed the gym today.

Basically a simple whine but I was looking forward to it

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

My head hurts so much.

[Kate*]

This is RETAIL CHILL and give me my hours back! And I'll need a fucking flu shot because everybody does shit sick!
I fucking hate people

Of course because, it figures.

I am uncertain how that makes me disrespectful? The person is the one who commented to me and was arguing with me? I was literally voicing my opinion. Also, yeah, I have never personally worked in those places but I know a decent amount of people who have and we've talked a decent amount about the particular issue.

I don't really need you around. I don't really want you around.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Why is this so hard!!!!! Come on, you have this in you! I need to believe in myself!!!!!!!

I feel the ghost of his hands all over me and if I didn't like it then, I really don't like it now. I'm trying so damn hard to be okay but I'm not and everyone can tell I'm struggling, but no one knows how much. I can't see my counselor until Wednesday. Please God, let me make it that long.

[FallonRose]

Why do I always put myself in a bad mood

[nothereanymore]

Why does my mother try to make me anxious. Bitch.

I let you break me

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Tired this morning, my cat woke me up at 3 a.m.

If I don't eat, I'll lose weight and become beautiful. If I'm beautiful, no one can hurt me because people don't hurt beautiful things.

I feel like a shitty person.

Okay, there was no need to make a passive-aggressive Facebook post. I legitimately don't know which friends of yours live in your city or not and, besides, most people have multiple friends who live in their hometown. It was a reasonable conclusion to come to. If you had a problem with me recommending asking your friends who live there to help you out you could have just said so.

[TheAtomicBlade]

I = Stupid, fat, idiotic, no-good, loser, total shithead

[Kate*]

Not sure if I love this job because I'm shocked that I'm actually getting paid this much to do this basic of a job or if I hate it because it's boring and people are mean. Considering that retail management treat me better than mental health professionals, I'll take it for now. If only I could finish my computer crap, get my pay stubs, my locker, and I'll be happy.

I felt safe when I was with you, and then all of a sudden, I didn't feel safe anymore. I didn't want to be alone with you because things always turned physical. I never wanted to be physical, but I never tried to stop you. I want to tell my counselor, but since I didn't try to stop you from touching me, I'm at fault. You would have stopped if I had said something. I know you would have. Please, tell me you would have.

[Lumos.]

Well fuck. I messed up. I didn’t even mean to do it, it just happened... everyone would be disappointed. I already lied about it too, so I can’t tell the truth. i hate myself right now

[nothereanymore]

Amazing how I disappoint my friends even when I don't do anything. I disappoint everyone. I can't remember the last time someone told me they were proud of me or that I make their life better. i genuinely don't feel pleasure anymore. I don't want to live. I don't. I just don't care. L

[MWF]

Why the FUCK did I decide to take an engineering class? I haven't done math in three years.

I feel so damn sad

[nothereanymore]

Nothing is fine. Nothing. Everything is hell. I want to kill myself.

[Kate*]

Where are you and where have you been?!

[Clarent]

I'm so affection deprived it's almost pathetic.

And fuck night shifts. Whoever came up with them should have their genitals sewn shut.

I don't like you and haven't liked you since 2004! GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD. I blocked you two times, what person in their RIGHT mind would let me re-friend them for a third time on the same account which I blocked them TWICE?!

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

All I will ever be is a burden. Even people have said I was a burden. Am I that much of a burden and a nuisance that no one wants me alive?

[nothereanymore]

Try to lie to me all you want, but I know the truth: I'm a burden and you want me gone.

My situation is not ideal but I'm a smaller problem than the 23 year old child molesting son you let back in. If I had cancer you wouldn't be treating me like this.

I
Feel
Like
A
Piece
Of
Shit

[Jess~]

why me

why is it always fucking me

[nothereanymore]

This is so fucked up.

I'm so tired and I hate being tired. Ugh, and I have to go get ready now. The only reason I like work these days is so I can see my good friend.

[Calaer]

I hate how you've treated us, and I hate how you expect to just get everything handed to you. I'm so glad you're leaving. Screw you.

[nothereanymore]

Why am I such a burden to you?