Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

You're really annoying me but that's okay. At least I know I'm not childish like you. Overall I'm pretty certain I'm more mature, realistic and a 'better' person.

[London_grace]

I'm tried, didn't get a lot of sleep. Things on my mind.

[.Brittany.]

I am so sick, and I'm working too much.. I need a day off.

It might be best too disappear

[Kate*]

It may not have been your job to build me up, but that doesn't mean your job was to destroy me. There is NO excuse for what you put me through.

I don't belong.

[nothereanymore]

You do this to yourself and that makes me so sad for you. You’re hurting. But you know better. And you choose to make yourself look like this damn fucking fool. I can’t stand who you’ve become.

[Everglow.]

Tired of being here.

[London_grace]

My cat kept jumping on me all night. So I didn't get to sleep a lot. I still love you.

I can't stand people who believe that some disabilities are more valid than others. If someone is dealing with a condition that limits their functioning and the quality of their life... It's a disability.

All disabilities are terrible and people who think that some are more valid than others are what leads to people with invisible illnesses/disabilities being treated terribly and not feeling as though they have a right to seek help.

[Celyn]

Feeling rough.

I feel like I don't want to go tonight but I already said I would and I know it will be good for me. Even if I only go for a few short hours.

[Kate*]

Rough day and tomorrow will be worse because it's Saturday. Plus there's no schedule yet and it's usually out by now. 3 days off in a row can't come fast enough.

[nothereanymore]

Every new year. Every time. I tell myself I don’t wanna see it. I wish I was fucking dead.

[London_grace]

Not sleeping as much. Need more. Too much going on.

Anxious about everything.
Anxious about what I spent even though I have it and I will be okay.

[Kate*]

Woke up too early, then slept too late and had nightmares. Awesome. And bonus: After not getting sick all year, my throat hurts!

I cannot breath my anxiety is too much

[nothereanymore]

Fucking sick of this shit. Leave me alone. Wish I was dead. I want to die. I’m gonna find a fucking way.

[nothereanymore]

So sick of bearing this weight on my shoulders

Fireworks have always been difficult for me ... too loud and it sets me on edge.
Also worried about the cats. My dad's cat is on edge. They aren't home and I know that upsets him as is. He won't really lay with me because he's strange and I am worried he is going to freak out, get out and disappear.
My cat's seem okay-ish but they are acting a little strange.
I am pretty sure these fireworks are the loudest any of us have experienced in a long time.

They have been going off for ages and it isn't even 12am here!!

[Kate*]

Medicaid lapsed at midnight for the 3rd year in a row through no fault on our end, my first purchase of the new year will be a new AC adapter, and my throat still hurts.

Happy New Year. DO YOUR FUCKING JOBS!

I hate myself and everyone else.

[Silvan]

I don't want to deal with anything. If I could do what I want all days during the rest of my life, I would like to live. But this way? Bonded by society, money and norms? Just give me peace. I've been thinking of how to be left alone in peace for so long. And each time death pops up in my mind.

Could the first day of a new year be more miserable?

[nothereanymore]

You act like you’re so easy to get along with and we just make you crazy. Fuck you.

[nothereanymore]

“YOURE BLOWING THINGS OUT OF PROPORTION” you yell after barreling into my room.

Also I’m actually sick to fucking death of you making my feelings out to be my choice. I don’t choose to feel like this for the love of all that is good on this green earth so I swear to god if I hear you say something like that one more time my insides are going to spontaneously combust. I. AM. SICK. AND. MY. SYMPTOMS. ARE. NOT. IN. MY. CONTROL. If I had a cold I wouldn’t be coughing because I wanted to. I’d be coughing because THATS WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU HAVE A COLD. FOR FUCKS SAKE.

I am so fucking tired of everyone. And tired of not belonging with anyone.

I have no idea what is going on.
My mind is spinning out of control

[Silvan]

I'm sorry Mum that I cause you headaches, I'm sorry that you have to spend time to deal with me all the time, I'm sorry Mum that I'm so problematic. I wish I was an ideal child, because you've put so much effort and devoted half of your life to make me well and happy.

I feel sick and dizzy and cannot sleep

[nothereanymore]

Nothing excites me. I don’t want to be alive.
IF PEOPLE WOULD JUST FUCKING LET ME LIVE

[Kate*]

Colds are the worst, and I have to work tomorrow.

People are so fucking IGNORANT! Bashing those who speak the TRUTH because it isn't what you want to hear make you the problem, not me.

Now I'm too anxious to make that call.
Maybe they'll contact me later today.
Until they do I'm gonna freak out and put off the other important phone call!

People are so ignorant, so stupid, so uneducated, so unworthy of Earth. Those people are PWMs.

I CAN'T stand the way you invalidate my feelings.
I express something. You shrug your shoulders or say something like "Whatever". You might not intend for it to be invalidating but it is.

[London_grace]

Feeling like crying, everything is getting to me!

[MWF]

I've definitely been depressed lately... but I haven't felt suicidal in years. And yet, I can't imagine a future where I don't kill myself.

[Everglow.]

Need to get my life sorted or else this is gonna get so much harder.

I have been so anxious the past few days.

I need to call and see about a therapist.

I also need to schedule an appointment to get a referral, maybe?

Why snow-bomb-mageddon whatever? WHY?

I am quite certain you do drugs. I am quite certain you do drugs I could never be okay with someone doing. So, I can say quite certainly that I dodged a bullet on that one.