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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Everyone is getting job offers except me.. they've all barely spent any time or effort applying. They don't have tens of thousands of dollars in student loan debt. they don't need to move out of an abusive house. But things just don't work out for me apparently. I'm about done. If I don't get the offer after my only second interview, I'm probably going to give up.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Actually fail so much at functioning like a normal person. Made a trivial mistake and now I feel like crying even though it's such a small thing. Hate myself so much sometimes.
Why cant my head let go of that one tiny stupid thing from earlier. It's making me feel so shit and I keep telling myself to get over it but my head keeps shouting it at me that I'm so stupid.
I am going to panic all week long about this interview and then what? Panic until I get the results and then freak out when I don't get it? Everyone is jinxing me by saying I'll get it.
The only thing worse than a phone interview or an exam is a phone interview with exam type questions during it. Need a ton of benzos, but don't have access.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Fuck everything. Contemplated suicide today. I can't live in this house with my parents and go to work with them and have them hovering over me constantly as I try to get a job (and in general). Unfortunately, I have no choice until I get a decent job. And I can't get a job because my mental and physical health have gotten so bad from living with my parents and not having an actual job.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
That's the one thing I'll argue with you about. I try not to engage. I post what I want and when you respond with ignorance I ignore it. However, when you victim blame and shame and basically accuse rape survivors of lying... I'll fight you on that because that's exactly what I dealt with.
I was a liar. My family was full of losers so obviously it couldn't be true... Yeah I need to stop being your friend but it's so damn hard.
I have a phone interview test thing that I feel super underqualified for. I can't do phone interviews or tests. It's in less than 3.5 hours. I don't have anything to treat my anxiety and my parents make fun of me for anxiety because most mental illnesses don't exist in their minds so to them I'm just overreacting and being immature. They keep trying to take videos/pictures of my panic attacks to show me "how stupid I look" to "fix my unreasonable behavior." And you guessed it, the anxiety has only gotten even worse. So they keep doing that and yelling at me more, which makes me even more anxious. No shit.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
I'm losing hope. Have to make plans for moving back into the house because the other lease ends in 3 weeks. I can't get another apartment because I still don't have a job. It's too late..
I can't deal with my parents going through all my stuff again with no cause to do so. But I doubt I can afford to rent a second storage unit. I don't even want to rent the first, and my parents will have access to that one.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
It's been such a hot day. 33 degrees, ignorant people out, work has been absolutely manic. And then to top it all off, I get to the train station and every single train is either cancelled or delayed. An Uber is extortionate. 3 and a half hours later, and a bus ride to my sisters and then a car ride with my dad, I'm finally home, showered and have eaten. I'm exhausted.
It's nearing the date.. and everything just constantly keeps getting worse with no hope of ever getting even slightly better. I've waited long enough. I'm done.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Spent the day trying not to cry but also wondering how much you have to invalidate someone in order to make them feel that they can't trust their own emotions and that someone else's perspective is right and your own is wrong. I wish I didn't feel this way. I wish you hadn't planted the seeds of doubt in my mind.
It's not fucking fair! I want to be happy for you, but I'm jealous that you get the easy way out when I'm suffering so much alone because you won't support me.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
I feel like all I want is to die. I know why I'm feeling this way. I just wish I could enjoy my week. I'm taking a vacation and the way I'm feeling... It'll be hard to enjoy.