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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Ignored a call from my manager today because I'm worried I'll be called back into work. It's not that I don't want to go back to work at all, but I'm still really anxious about catching something because of having to get two trains there.
"Just make friends." Yeah sure, I'll just do that somehow in isolation. The past 6 whole fucking years have proved that I can't do it normally. I'm sure I can pull it off now.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Um... FUCK NO I'm not picking up YOUR slack from when I was gone. I don't care if we're getting inspected. I am sick to DEATH of your holier than thou attitude, your disrespect, and you LAZY ass. I'm letting management know it's YOUR job, and if we overlap that day, I'm NOT doing it for you!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Been doing informal case study on myself to figure out what's making this fatigue so bad. I'm about to formally gather and reference the peer-reviewed articles I've read and compare to my database of test results, and write a paper to show my doctor.
I struggled so much to get my bio degree from college because of fighting untreated severe fatigue. Now I'm going to use my degree to try to get myself some treatment.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
I'm so so so nervous about my presentation on Thursday. Second guessing myself even though I was semi-happy with my slideshow a couple of weeks ago. I hate public speaking even if it's online.
My entire life prior to quarentine doesn't feel real. Whatever new normal this is has taken over as an altered state, and everything else belongs to a stranger I can never quite reach.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
Lesson learned, Once you punch out for your meal break STAY UPSTAIRS I get 10 instead of 30 minutes because people kept wanting shit. I don't mind walking him over there, but I'm not answering the phone. I told you I was punched out 3 TIMES!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I can't go on anymore, and I don't want to. Oh and guarenteed that the next few years of my life--if I don't die within a couple weeks--will only get even fucking worse. Yes, I should have killed myself before when I had the means to. That's my biggest regret now. Not killing myself before this. Because now I'm choosing between a COVID death, starvation death, or suicide. Suicide can be much quicker than either of the other two. I don't hate myself anymore, so don't I deserve the path of least suffering?
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
I'm so anxious about work tomorrow. Going to a store that isn't mine, with people I don't know, getting public transport for the first time in 3 months. I wish I was still on furlough. It's not fair that other people haven't been called back and I have.
Tomorrow, all hell breaks loose to ruin my life completely, forever. Maybe instead of planning for that, it's time to plan how to end it and make sure I don't fail.
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.