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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
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November 6th 2014, 03:42 PM
I just want to disappear forever and make everyone else happy.
It's not like it would matter nor would anyone care/notice, I'm just a pathetic excuse for a person and nothing but a failure and a burden.
Feel alone and worthless.
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November 7th 2014, 10:44 AM
I am trying not to think about it. It sucks. How can you stop thoughts? Make it go away. I close my eyes and I can see him laughing! I hate this. I fucking hate him for what he did to me. I fucking hate myself for being me. I thought I was strong enough to get over it. Its been 2 years and the weakling in me refuses to forget anything. I want to everything. I am so fed up. I don't want to be me anymore. I am such a fucking failure.I am such a fucking loser.
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November 7th 2014, 01:34 PM
Okay. I'm isolating myself in a way.. but I can't afford to have more negative energy attached on myself more than I already do. I'm not okay. Not going to let any 'worse' happen. Keeping it all under control.
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November 7th 2014, 10:22 PM
I didn't eat the whole day then dad comes round and screams at us all.. Threatens to not go to my sisters wedding and he will have nothing to do with my life so I fucking binged. Now I'm gonna have to take stupid laxatives
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November 8th 2014, 09:53 PM
Feeling like i'm just a bother to everyone recently.. it would be so easy to give in to everything at this point.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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November 8th 2014, 10:59 PM
Sick of being sick. My throat is so swollen I can hardly swallow pain killers and I have to work and go back to uni now. I just need time to recover. I can't remember when I was last completely healthy.
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November 10th 2014, 03:33 AM
Okay, I accept it. I have bitten more than I can chew. But, that does not mean I am giving up. Even if I have lost a year, I am going to complete what I have taken up. So leave me the fuck alone and yes, take your negativity with you!
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November 11th 2014, 02:57 AM
Dear God will you please just shut the fuck up already? I am so tired of hearing you whine and beat yourself up day after day. Literally every day you manage to say at least one thing self-deprecating; I just want to walk out of the room when you start in. And your kids? They're spoiled rich little shits. Get the fuck over yourself and learn how to discipline them; your life will be much better for it.
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November 13th 2014, 06:50 PM
This is driving me insane. I've been more than patient, but I am sick and tired of waiting already. It's been far too long and I want to know when it's finally going to happen.
I love my Big Sleepy Bear.
I still fill my panties; do YOU?
No great artist ever sees things as they really are. If he did, he would cease to be an artist. -Oscar Wilde
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Re: Screaming thread. -
November 14th 2014, 12:01 AM
Please just come back to me. things will be different i swear.
This world is so cold and lonely without you. All i think about it you and on times it even causes my chest to physically hurt.
I wont cut anymore as if you come back I dont want you to have to look at yet more scars caused by heart break over you.
I wont end it all because if i do you can never come back, But i don't want to live without you.
Please come back so we can be happy, have our home, our big day and make retarded god babies together like we promised xxx
Re: Screaming thread. -
November 14th 2014, 12:53 AM
I don't know why you haven't given up on me yet. I've run out of reasons not to give up on myself. I really don't understand how that (apparently) wasn't the last straw, it seems to have been everyone else's. It's taking everything I have not to walk away, and I don't have very much.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; November 14th 2014 at 05:04 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
November 14th 2014, 11:51 AM
I think I spoke too soon. I frigging thought I was feeling better today, but now I have fever. I guess I am never going to see a happy,normal day! Ugh!
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November 14th 2014, 04:17 PM
Great! One more person proves that I am a worthless piece of shit. I was there when you needed me, but when I ask you to come talk to me, you ignore me. Am I just a punching bag, where you come scream and rant when you are hurt and throw away when you don't need it? Why do I fucking care, why do I fucking get attached so easily, why do I expect anything from people, why don't I realize I am fucking meant to be alone. Nobody wants me and nobody will ever want me.