Triggering: Complaint of the Day 2

[Tigereyes]

I can't keep this up. If I want the pain to stop, I have to face what's behind it. But I'm afraid to. I'm afraid to let in the truth and acknowledge the consequences and pain.

Also I'm so fucking lonely right now.

I have a headache and no medication to take.

[daisy_jam]

I'm feeling sad today

[Celyn]

I'm not really with it today. Can't concentrate.

Woke up with a headache again. Hopefully it goes away by tomorrow

[MsNobleEleanor]

I feel so frozen in life.

[Storyteller.]

I appear to be having a mild allergic reaction to something and it's not very fun.

I feel so damn apathetic and I feel like it is going to impact my interview negatively. I'll do my best, I suppose. Not going to get the job anyway so there is that.

I haven't eaten that much since July. I am still stuffed and I finished eating five hours ago. Way to go J.

Woke up feeling relatively empty and confused.

Dreading the next few days. Also don't really want to deal with them today

[daisy_jam]

I have that heaviness in my chest and it weighs like a bloody ton. It's crushing me. I hate feeling so so so sad

Woke up feeling depressed and anxious
Got to make it through till Monday

[daisy_jam]

Call me a grinch but I loathe Christmas.

[daisy_jam]

It's almost 1am and I'm in such a bad mood, got a horrible message from a "friend", I feel so so alone. I have horrible intrusive thoughts. I hurt my foot installing the gate and I have the biggest migraine ughhhhhhhhhh

Struggling to find a book that keeps me interested. I know, part of the reason is that I am distracted. The other part is that I don't really want to read but don't feel like watching tv ... so I would be sitting around doing nothing.

Maybe I'll try and get into the Shadowhunters show or one of the other shows I have been wanting to watch. I have been waiting to catch up on The Walking Dead.

Have a semi busy day and I haven't slept and I'm not sure I will. This will lead to a headache and irritability.

[Kintsukuroi.]

It’s 2:30 and i can’t sleep.

[Clarent]

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Tomorrow is the day? IDK, it might not be.
Feel so unwanted. Feel unappreciated. Feel like maybe dying wouldn't be a bad thing.
Wish these thoughts would end.
Worried about him. Worried about me.
Want everything to work out. Want everything to end!

I'm having anxiety.
I woke up with it and am not feeling like doing much even though I have things I'd like to do. So, there's that. Maybe I won't do those things or maybe I can talk myself up to it.

I wish I didn't have any obligations tomorrow. I need my safe space, I need time to unwind. I need time to myself, peace and quiet.

I feel kind of anxious.
I feel kind of sick to my stomach and I am not sure why.
I didn't receive something and realized that with the Holiday ... it might not get here til the 2nd of January ... that's kind of disappointing because I have been looking forward to getting them.

Feeling slightly depressed. Hoping that my friends hang out tonight but doubt they will since we are hanging out Saturday.

Just need to get out of the house but tomorrow will be here in no time.

Amazon changed the delivery date on a package. It's not a huge deal but I was really excited for the particular item.
I have a ton of anxiety and feel as though my life is going absolutely no where.

Why is there such a discrepancy between the woman I see in the mirror and the woman I see in photographs? I was looking through the pictures we took today, and I look skinny in all of them. I look skinny and small and breakable. But the woman in the mirror is a giant. She’s horribly oversized and obsese and could break everyone around her. I weighed myself when I got home, and the number I saw is significantly higher than what it was this morning and all I want to do is go to the gym because when I work out I’m safe. I ate too much because family was around all day and they’re already beginning to catch on. I’m so close to underweight, I just have to get there first.

Starve Erin, starve. That’s the only thing that can keep you safe anymore. Starve. No more food. It doesn’t matter what people say, you’re an adult. No one can make you do anything. Starve. No one can stop you. But you’re too fucking weak to starve properly anymore. What happened to you? You’re going to get fatter. The number will keep going up if you eat anything, and then you’ll be so upset you’ll kill yourself. Just starve. You’re safer if you’re smaller.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I can’t sleep.

[daisy_jam]

I've logged out from all of my social media for tonight and I feel so fucking sad. I hate celebrating the new year. Why am I all alone?

[Everglow.]

There's no point being at work today. We have no customers and we are half way through the working day and haven't made a penny. I could be sleeping!

My mind is tormenting me and I did not sleep great

[Celyn]

Not in the mood. Cramps and lower back pain. Stupid thoughts. Just want to cry but trying to be positive. Feel like this is going to set the tone for next year :/

I feel as though the best thing would be for me to disappear.

[Storyteller.]

Starting the new year off with a bleeding nose. That seems about right.

I have a bit of a headache.
My anxiety seems to be ramping up.
I think I might be slightly manic which is pretty awesome. I hate myself when I am manic especially when I am like this around people which I was on Saturday so go me!

This situation is making me anxious.
I need to know the why so I can figure out if I need to use a different account.

[Celyn]

I'm on edge as it is. Think I should avoid watching these storylines....don't want to think about what could happen.

[MWF]

I'm so anxious about the future. Everybody thought I was going to be so successful but I have no idea what I want to do.

Contacted the company about the two missing books. The gave me the tracking and said it was delivered on the 22nd of December and they told me to contact my USPS. I called them and the wait was 40-50minues. I will be going in and talking to them but don't have much hope for finding a resolution. I swear I'll throw a fit if the company doesn't replace or refund my money (I would rather a replacement).

I know this company doesn't have the greatest customer service and I worry I'll have issues and lose my money...but I won't hesitate to throw a fit ....

There are only so many things that could have happened 1) the usps delivered it but I missed it and someone stole it 2) they delivered it to the wrong address. They might be able to get it back if that is the case BUT the 22nd was ages ago so I doubt it.

Those seem like the only two options if it was actually delivered and Idk what the usps does if a package gets stolen after they deliver it. I feel like the place you deliver too is the one who will have to work with you...so there is that.

I hate how dehydrated the heat makes me.

I'm tired of worrying