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Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
April 1st 2012, 02:06 AM
You do something no one else can do; you make me feel important. You make me feel like my thoughts matter. My actions matter. You make me feel like I don't have to wear this cage anymore, you make me feel like I can let down my defense and just talk. You've known me for two or three months, people who've known me for years can't do that. So how can you?
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April 1st 2012, 08:18 PM
D :I'm so sorry, I'm so so sorry. I was upset and just being selfish when I was talking to you last night. I'm sorry. I had no right to say those things or talk to you like I did, being upset isn't an excuse. I was going to cut, but then I remembered what you said so I didn't. I wanted to so badly, but I didn't. I shouldn't have told you that I purged, I should have just let it go but I was being selfish and decided to tell you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I know sorry is a pointless word because it's used so often but I feel so terrible about what I said. I'm sorry.
J: I promised you a long time ago that I'd tell you every time I throw up, but I can't. I can't stand your disappointment, your anger.
M: I don't care what's happening to me, I'm not going to stop. But I'm not going to let on everything that's going on because I don't want you to worry about me. Remember, you told me yourself that I'm perfect.
Dr. M: I throw up. Like a lot. That's one of the reasons I don't sing as well as I did. I know that I'm hurting my vocal chords, I know that I'm throwing my sole talent down the drain but I don't care. I've sung for seven years, I love it more than words can express but I can't give up on purging. I don't want to give up on purging. Thank you for teaching me so much, I'm going to stay in choir as long as I can but I know singing will some day become impossible for me. With what I've learned from choir I can use in different places. I'll write music, I'll play the piano and learn how to play the guitar. The self-discipline and control that choir has given me isn't good though, it makes not eating so much easier for me.
E: I'm dying but I don't care. I'm not afraid of death. Not anymore.
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
April 2nd 2012, 01:32 AM
To you, who left me:
I thought you cared about me, but I see now that you did not. Nothing personal, but if you ever come back into my life when I least want you to and attempt to whisk me off my feet -- like you tend to do -- it's gonna be a hell of a lot harder. If I'm not already with someone else, which looking at things right now, is not a far-fetched possibility.
To you, who's quickly becoming my best friend:
You were there when he wasn't. You check on me every time I post something about being down, even when one of my "best friends" does not. I could talk to you for ages, and you're a wonderful person to be around. I know you like me; I've known for a while. Part of the reason I've been talking to you so much? I've been trying to figure out whether I like you, too. I know this is gonna sound completely shallow, but if you were a bit thinner, I probably would be with you already. You're a great person... I just don't know what I feel about you, and it's horrible.
To you, who I know I like but won't tell:
Oh, hey, yeah, I like you! I would tell you, but you sit right behind me in my first block class. Talk about awkward, if you don't like me back! But, if you do, then just tell me, eh? I mean, you're completely out of my league. Tall, blonde, and friends with a bunch of people who look down on me and all my friends like we're dirt between their toes. You have a beautiful laugh, though, and an even prettier smile and voice. I just wish you knew I thought that...
Anna's Personal Keys to Happiness 1. Do what you want within the bounds of reason, whenever you want to, and regret nothing. 2. If you have an opinion, don't beat around the bush, or there isn't a point in saying it. 3. Don't keep the company of anyone who won't like you and will try to change you.
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April 2nd 2012, 11:53 PM
Oh, yes, another one to you who left me.
Yes. You took a picture of your feet and made them your profile picture on Facebook, and one of my friends commented on it. It was enough to nearly send me to tears, because as soon as I saw it, I remembered all the insecurities you have about your feet, and then all the insecurities you had about the rest of you. Then I remembered all those times connected to those insecurities, all the laughs we had about it while I was trying to make you feel better about yourself.
Why did you leave me?
Anna's Personal Keys to Happiness 1. Do what you want within the bounds of reason, whenever you want to, and regret nothing. 2. If you have an opinion, don't beat around the bush, or there isn't a point in saying it. 3. Don't keep the company of anyone who won't like you and will try to change you.
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
April 3rd 2012, 08:25 AM
No matter what you say, it's always my fault.
It always has been.
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“I will be generous with my love today. I will sprinkle compliments and uplifting words everywhere I go. I will do this knowing that my words are like seeds and when they fall on fertile soil, a reflection of those seeds will grow into something greater.”
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
April 3rd 2012, 08:42 AM
We're as okay as you want us to be.
Don't distance yourself from me.
Self pity will not rescue you.
Sometimes we have to save our own lives,
not because no one else cares, but because no one else can.
Life for you has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We've all been sorry, we've all been hurt
But how we survive is what makes us who we are.
Dreamed up the maps, give me the charcoal and the paper
We invent paths they cannot see, and they're too scared to walk
Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It's only after you've lost everything that you are free to do anything.
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
April 3rd 2012, 01:54 PM
I want you, and you should know that by now. If you havn't been on by the time I get back, i'll say you killed yourself.......and i'll cry, i'll never be happy again. I fuckin LOVE YOU!!!!!!! I just wish, for once in my life, that someone like you will come along so I can forget about you. Gosh, if you would just ONCE listen to me, you would have a reason to live. I'll die without you, your the one person in the world that I love. I would cut if I could.
WE DECIDED MY BEST INTEREST, how can you know, how can you say what MY BEST INTEREST is? What are you trying to say, I'm crazy? Well, I went to your schools, I went to your Churches, I went to your institutional learning facility, so how can you say that I'M crazy? (Suicidal Tendencies)