Without Me. (Poem)

[Phantom_Girl]

Would they notice that I'm gone?
Or would life just move on?

Would they even blink an eye?
Would they care if I died?

Sure, maybe they would honor me.
But in a few days, It'd be back to happy.

Life would carry on the same.
They go back to playing their games.

It's like I'm invisible anyway
And I don't even have a say.

It's not like I can start over again.
Let's just face it, I have no friends.

Bonds have been made, and I can't get in.
I can never, ever, seem to win.

They wouldn't notice if I left.
They wouldn't even question it.

I seriously wonder if they'd care
If I just wasn't there.

But I assume they won't, as you can see.
In fact, I think it'll just be better without me.
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I wrote this about my drama class. I feel left out by EVERYONE. Everyone is friends with everyone, but me. No one talks to me unless they have to. I can't seem to make friends. It's third quarter, so I can't anyway. I just can't walk up like it's the first day and say "Hi my name is..." and make friends. Bonds/friendships have already been made. But often times, I wonder if anyone in the class would care if I died or disappeared. Personally, I don't think they would care. They would be sad for a day or two probably, but they would go back to their normal selves within that day. I really just want to see what they would do if I wasn't there. I'm not going to kill myself, but I would be interested to see what would happen if I did. Would they care? Or would they be happy that I'm gone? I actually think my drama class would be better if I wasn't there. And I don't think they would care at all.

[Ennui.]

I love this a lot and I can totally relate. Great job!

[oldaccount]

I like the poem, and it is definitely relatable. Nicely done.

I like this a lot. Nice job on it.

[Phantom_Girl]

thanks guys! I still am feeling left out my the class, but a little more part of it, because we were at a competition yesterday, and moved on the the next round. I was hugging everyone and they hugged back and cared. But every day besides that I still feel like it wouldn't even matter if I was there or not.