If i died... (Added on poem that I wrote)

If I died...

Look at what they did to me
With wordy weapons of flames
Now bloody tears fall, you see
One day they'll stand in shame


I know that people wouldn't cry
They would laugh if I died
I've always wanted to try
Because I've always been denied


Sorry I didn't leave sooner
I thought I had another chance
To finally be healed for the better
I thought this feeling was just a trance


But my life is getting harder
It wouldn't move back in place
People see my scars of shame
Which causes hate to build even warmer


Hopeless days, and sleepless nights
Keep appearing in its ways
I'm trying to win this fight
But now I'm far too weary, so should I die?


If I died, I'd wave goodbye
With a tear in my eye
I'd breathe my last breath
And then I'd greet death


That's what everyone's counting on
To see me finally be gone
It may be lie or may be true
But it's what I should do


I'm sorry to those who care
Who would bother to shed a tear
I'm sorry to my haters
For once trying so hard to stay alive


But I give up, so this is goodbye.....
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...I've been told some nasty lies
That pull me straight to the ground
I've been screaming hateful cries
But no one saw me feeling down

Times will get rough and feel unbearable
But I know I can't give up 'cause nothing's impossible
To be alright again like I once was
I'll just keep saying to never give up

This world has broken me before
To the point of closing all my doors
So no one can come into my life
To give me a chance to be more petrified

I know I have a reason to live here
So I can't ruin my plan on earth
I can't leave the place I'm meant to be
But I just want them all to see

That I can't manage to do this alone;
To try and be happy on my own
So please help me and show that you care
Before it goes wrong and tears me apart

I remember how I used to feel
With a smile that was so real
Now tears have come to reck my way
Tell me "How will I ever be okay?"

I know you say that you're there for me
But sometimes it's hard to believe
When you don't give me the help I need
To find joy in life, like it used to be

I know I won't leave this world
But please give me a reason to stay
Tell me why I shouldn't hate myself
I want to find some other way...

...To stay strong and never give up!
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A/N: I hope you like it. The first half of this poem used to be all there was until I got inspired and added on to it. I didn't want that to be how it ended. So here's a better ending.

[Ennui.]

I really love the addition and I am super glad you posted it! You ended on a more positive note by saying you don'twant to give up.

aww thank you Dez. I'm so glad you like it!

I really like how you edited it to add a positive note. It's so emotional and shows your struggles at the same time it shows you wanting to reach out.

Stay strong and hold on. You can pull through this, Cheyenne.

Thanks Ellie! I'm glad you like it!