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Forum: Why Me? June 20th 2020, 02:52 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Dear life,
What the actual fuck.
Forum: LGBTQ+, Sexuality and Gender Identity June 20th 2020, 02:15 PM
Replies: 1
HRT
Views: 10,909
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: HRT

Okay, so my partner and I are both nonbinary and AFAB. I feel like I'm also on the agender spectrum, but as nonbinary gender/s. My partner identifies with gender a lot more than I do.

I personally...
Forum: Why Me? June 19th 2020, 10:06 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't go on anymore, and I don't want to. Oh and guarenteed that the next few years of my life--if I don't die within a couple weeks--will only get even fucking worse. Yes, I should have killed...
Forum: Why Me? June 19th 2020, 05:12 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

All hope is gone.
Forum: Why Me? June 19th 2020, 12:03 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't sleep or eat. Which I guess is good because I need to cut back on buying essential groceries anyway.
Forum: Depression and Suicide June 18th 2020, 10:51 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 12,160
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Suicidal about COVID-19?

They won't work with me. It is official that I have to choose between staying alive and a shitty traumatizing job.
Forum: Why Me? June 18th 2020, 10:48 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Only reason I might not kill myself is that I don't have the same access to deadly means that I once did. Shit gets worse. I'm done.
Forum: Why Me? June 18th 2020, 03:07 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I'm not okay and I never will be. This life I'm living is too fucked up to be real. I am some character in a dystopian novel. Just another outcast with trauma that only gets worse the more you rise...
Forum: Why Me? June 18th 2020, 01:01 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My entire life prior to quarentine doesn't feel real. Whatever new normal this is has taken over as an altered state, and everything else belongs to a stranger I can never quite reach.
Forum: Why Me? June 16th 2020, 03:47 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Been doing informal case study on myself to figure out what's making this fatigue so bad. I'm about to formally gather and reference the peer-reviewed articles I've read and compare to my database of...
Forum: Why Me? June 15th 2020, 01:16 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm tired of being beyond exhausted every second of every day for the past 14 years, knowing that it'll never improve and could get even worse.
Forum: Why Me? June 14th 2020, 02:27 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

So much makes me so hopeless.
Forum: Why Me? June 12th 2020, 08:41 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

"Just make friends." Yeah sure, I'll just do that somehow in isolation. The past 6 whole fucking years have proved that I can't do it normally. I'm sure I can pull it off now.
Forum: Why Me? June 12th 2020, 07:07 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

If life keeps fucking me over and won't let me get support, I am going to kill myself. I can't take it anymore. And there's no reason to.
Forum: Why Me? June 12th 2020, 06:42 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

"Talk to someone else about this." Like who?
Forum: Why Me? June 10th 2020, 08:16 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I wish I had killed myself 5 years ago, before everything got so complicated.
Forum: Why Me? June 10th 2020, 03:47 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm not good at being sober, I don't want to be sober, being sober has always sucked. They said it would get easier. Sobriety is just pain and suffering, PTSD, depression, anxiety, chronic illness,...
Forum: Why Me? June 6th 2020, 03:49 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm sorry...
Forum: Why Me? June 5th 2020, 05:21 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't go on like this much longer. I'm hanging by a thread. I know it's bad because this current situation makes ALL my past trauma, including being abused as a child, seem laughable in comparison....
Forum: Why Me? June 2nd 2020, 01:10 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

There's another crisis at hand. I don't know what specifically it is yet. Today is already too much and more has yet to come. I've barely been awake half an hour, and today is too much.

"She's...
Forum: Why Me? June 1st 2020, 03:29 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

There is no future for me.
Forum: Why Me? June 1st 2020, 12:59 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I am fucking terrified of all the few possible outcomes. And I SHOULD be.
Forum: Why Me? May 31st 2020, 04:39 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

There's no hope at all. Only death.
Forum: Why Me? May 31st 2020, 12:41 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Week-long panic attack is the new normal. Even sleep gives me no relief
Forum: Depression and Suicide May 30th 2020, 02:13 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 12,160
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Suicidal about COVID-19?

I wish I found it hard to believe, but unfortunately, I don't. I do have specific information that shows the university's lack of safety and complete disregard for high risk people, but I do not...
Forum: Friends and Family May 29th 2020, 03:27 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 4,394
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Parents too strict

Hey, I noticed a lot of people are saying to talk to them about it. I agree that you should try to have that conversation. Sometimes it will work.

But sometimes it doesn't. It's important to...
Forum: Why Me? May 29th 2020, 01:39 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It is very possible that I'm about to die or ruin my entire future if I stay home. I'm too young to be deciding between probable death and certain increasing debt. I don't want to die. I don't want...
Forum: Depression and Suicide May 29th 2020, 01:25 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 12,160
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Suicidal about COVID-19?

Outcome is looking even worse. It's not resolved, no detailed safety plan in place, no good options only bad.
Forum: Why Me? May 28th 2020, 12:52 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

There is a good chance I will be dead in 2-3 weeks.
Forum: Religion and Spirituality, Science and Philosophy May 28th 2020, 01:35 AM
Replies: 656
Views: 72,402
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Prayer Requests Thread

That my partner and I don't get sick and die..
Forum: Why Me? May 27th 2020, 06:48 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

This university job is LITERALLY about to be the death of me. They're making high risk people go back to work to die.
Forum: Depression and Suicide May 27th 2020, 02:39 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 12,160
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Suicidal about COVID-19?

Thanks for the responses. I am already taking all precautions in my power, but I need other people to help keep me safe. The 95% of people who don't attempt social distancing or mask wearing are...
Forum: Why Me? May 25th 2020, 05:11 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Well I fucked everything up even worse somehow
Forum: Depression and Suicide May 25th 2020, 03:47 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 12,160
Posted By Tigereyes
Suicidal about COVID-19?

I don't know where else to put this. Please feel free to move it.

TW: chronic illness mention, COVID-19, thoughts of suicide and death due to illness, debt.

I'm high risk for severe illness if...
Forum: Why Me? May 24th 2020, 01:50 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

That feeling when you likely only have a couple weeks to live before suffering a horrible, slow, painful, lonely death. Part of me wants to just give up and go enjoy everything one last time before I...
Forum: Religion and Spirituality, Science and Philosophy May 24th 2020, 01:07 AM
Replies: 656
Views: 72,402
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Prayer Requests Thread

That me and other high risk people won't have to go to work to die.
Forum: Why Me? May 24th 2020, 12:49 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I might actually have to return to work very soon, despite the pandemic hitting us harder than ever. That means I will probably die within a few weeks.
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 24th 2020, 12:20 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Looks like I might be returning for non-essential work as a high risk person in a week after all... Really not okay.
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 23rd 2020, 06:13 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Over 1100 new confirmed cases in 1 day. Highest ever; our percent positive RATE is continuing to increase. What a shock... :mad:
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 22nd 2020, 07:01 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Our rate of infection (percent positive) has suddenly shown an increase since we started reopening two weeks ago. But yes, lets further reopen the state in a few hours. Great idea...
Forum: Why Me? May 21st 2020, 11:53 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Why is it so hard to find someone who can keep it together when you've come undone?
Forum: Why Me? May 21st 2020, 11:04 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I post here because I have almost no friends, and my only friends are busy
Forum: Self Expression May 21st 2020, 04:38 PM
Replies: 7
Triggering: About to Die
Views: 6,777
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: About to Die

Thank you!
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 20th 2020, 11:32 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Over 20,000 confirmed cases as of this morning. Ratings going up but moving to next phase of reopening in 2 days. Restaurants, hair/nail salons, tattoo shops, larger gatherings. They haven't waited...
Forum: Self Expression May 20th 2020, 04:49 PM
Replies: 7
Triggering: About to Die
Views: 6,777
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: About to Die

Thanks for all the feedback and support!

As someone who already had PTSD, I know this will stick with me long past the duration of the pandemic, especially since I'm at high risk.
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 18th 2020, 07:48 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Thanks for the advice. There is no work to do from home due to the nature of my job. Also I work at a large university, so my boss and HR are limited in their ability to support me. I'm currently...
Forum: Why Me? May 17th 2020, 03:36 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

If I get COVID-19, I will likely be a severe case with high probability of death. I don't want to die, but I keep thinking that if it comes to having a week left to live that killing myself could be...
Forum: Self Expression May 17th 2020, 02:59 PM
Replies: 7
Triggering: About to Die
Views: 6,777
Posted By Tigereyes
About to Die

TW: death, COVID-19

Everyone said to panic more;
It finally got through.
My entire life is panic.
There's no logical reason
To believe it'll turn out okay.
Best I can do
Is live like I'm...
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 17th 2020, 02:46 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

18,000 confirmed cases in my state. Again, we only test those sick enough that they might need to be hospitalized. Infection rate is increasing as state reopens. Huge shock. No one follows social...
Forum: Why Me? May 17th 2020, 02:38 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Trying to live each day like I will be dead in a week or two because at any point during this pandemic, it could reasonably be true. Makes me hate my disability even more for stealing my life from me.
Forum: Why Me? May 10th 2020, 01:28 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

This pandemic is completing the break in this broken home.
Forum: Why Me? May 9th 2020, 06:02 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't go on living this way anymore.
Forum: Why Me? May 8th 2020, 08:15 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Each walk outside might be my last. Ever. I try to enjoy every second of it to the fullest. No one cares if I die. I don't want to, but if I have to go back to work onsite in 2 days, I will get...
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 8th 2020, 08:11 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

My state is reopening this evening. Cases are way on the rise. I might have to work monday, as high risk person. Or take unpaid ADA leave. Would be nice to know.
Forum: Why Me? May 6th 2020, 02:06 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

If they make me go back to work in 2 weeks to die, I might actually just end it myself. Because I don't want to slowly die like that... and if the other option is no income and unable to file for...
Forum: Games and Things May 6th 2020, 02:01 PM
Replies: 10,497
Views: 531,244
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

You're wrong, but I value our relationship more than I need to be right.
Forum: Current Events and Debates May 5th 2020, 11:17 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

State starts reopening this Friday. About 12,500 cases now. It's about to get so much worse. I'm preparing for the worst... because it likely will happen now.
Forum: Why Me? May 5th 2020, 07:17 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Waiting for the possible debt/death sentence
Forum: Mental Health May 5th 2020, 04:29 PM
Replies: 5
Views: 11,028
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Does therapy work?

TW: brief mention of abuse and addiction (mention of maladaptive drinking), but no details

I've had negative and positive experiences--probably more negative because I was doing "free" counseling...
Forum: Why Me? May 3rd 2020, 07:47 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I really can't do this anymore
Forum: Why Me? May 3rd 2020, 06:37 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Got yelled at too. I'm so done with today.
Forum: Why Me? May 3rd 2020, 03:33 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I regret staying alive for this.
Forum: Why Me? May 3rd 2020, 03:14 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

If I'm going to die, I'd rather just get it over with than wait for the inevitable
Forum: Why Me? May 2nd 2020, 05:42 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Still sick of being so sick with no hope of feeling better
Forum: LGBTQ+, Sexuality and Gender Identity May 1st 2020, 11:17 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 11,430
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I'm questioning my gender

Glad I could help! You don't have to use any word that is uncomfortable to you. If something sounds right, or even close, use it if it is safe to do so! Also dysphoria is not a requirement for any of...
Forum: LGBTQ+, Sexuality and Gender Identity May 1st 2020, 08:43 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 11,430
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I'm questioning my gender

Hey, I can relate to that. And while it can be difficult and scary to question your gender, it doesn't have to be a bad experience.

One thing to note is that the term transgender doesn't refer...
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 30th 2020, 06:09 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Numbers go up, but I'm dissociating more and not following it. Like 10,000 known cases. Can't do anything. I'm powerless to do anything more than I already am. They're lifting restrictions, and the...
Forum: Why Me? April 30th 2020, 06:02 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

So tired, but severe painsomnia. No, tomorrow won't be better as I had hoped.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 25th 2020, 01:42 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Almost 8300 cases today. They extended shut down by one week.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 23rd 2020, 01:51 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Almost 7600 confirmed cases. Again, we're just not testing most people. But this afternoon, we find out if the state reopens in less than a week.

If this happens and I have to go back to work...
Forum: Why Me? April 23rd 2020, 01:42 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My parents are still trying to manipulate me into working for them right now. I can't even get chores and hobbies done in the 6 hours/day I am moderately functional lately.

They also keep trying...
Forum: Why Me? April 22nd 2020, 02:54 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

According to my parents, a month of rest means I can't experience symptoms of my chronic illness--that I have been experiencing for the past 15 years of my life.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 21st 2020, 07:14 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

7000 confirmed cases in the state now. This is estimated to be 5-10% of the actual number because we aren't testing most people with symptoms. More protests to reopen state.
Forum: Why Me? April 19th 2020, 10:15 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Everyone told me to panic more as I fought to stay rational. Now I'm fixated on "the fact" that I am going to die from COVID-19 in a few weeks or less. I can't un-convince myself, and if I'm going to...
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 19th 2020, 01:30 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Almost 6400 cases now, almost 200 deaths, in my state. So glad I can go to the beach now and maybe return to non-essential work where social distancing is impossible on May 1st! :glare:

Edit:...
Forum: Why Me? April 19th 2020, 12:58 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

At least it will be over soon.. one way or another... I'm tired of playing this game of life...
Forum: Why Me? April 18th 2020, 06:24 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Why did I stay alive for this again?
Forum: Why Me? April 17th 2020, 09:25 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I feel like I'm sitting here alone, powerless to do anything as I wait for death.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 17th 2020, 08:50 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

They're reopening the beaches tomorrow...
It's over 6000 cases now.
Forum: Why Me? April 16th 2020, 01:28 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

They might force us to go back to work in 2 weeks and just keep social distancing (not really possible with my job). If so, I guess it's time to work on a will and consider burning diaries. Because I...
Forum: Why Me? April 16th 2020, 03:10 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I wish I could feel better. Unfortunately that's impossible forever.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 16th 2020, 01:35 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

They are talking about reopening the state in a couple weeks...

Over 5500 cases in the state.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 15th 2020, 08:08 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Over 5100 cases in the state as of this morning
Forum: Why Me? April 14th 2020, 11:58 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I wish I could get rid of my body.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 14th 2020, 09:33 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Yep, these are the confirmed cases. They don't test most people either because they don't have enough tests. So only the bad cases and high risk people get recorded. Many states in the USA are like...
Forum: Why Me? April 14th 2020, 09:23 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I wish there was something I could do to feel better, but there isn't; I will always feel this bad or worse until I die.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 12th 2020, 01:11 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Over 4300 cases in my state.. up 600 in 2 days
Forum: Why Me? April 9th 2020, 10:19 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My body really fucking sucks.
Forum: Why Me? April 9th 2020, 09:29 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Still feel so drained. Don't worry, I won't feel better. Not tomorrow, not ever.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 9th 2020, 09:21 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Basically I don't even want to know how bad it is anymore. Approaching 3700 in my state.
Forum: Self Harm April 9th 2020, 08:47 PM
Replies: 21,408
Views: 967,171
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Self harm free!

1346 days--so a little over 3 years and 8 months.

But more importantly, I have today.

For those of you with a few hours or a few days, that's a great start, and you should be proud of yourself...
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 4th 2020, 06:49 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Over 2400 positive cases in my state as of this morning.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 4th 2020, 02:40 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

So yesterday, I mentioned our state was around 1600 cases. This morning, it reached almost 2100...

I'm really losing myself. Too bad I can't do anything to improve anything.
Forum: Current Events and Debates April 2nd 2020, 02:24 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

My state is at almost 1600 positive cases, over 10 deaths so far. My county is almost at 150 cases, a neighboring county is close to 250 cases. The rest of the state finally got a stay-at-home order...
Forum: Why Me? March 30th 2020, 02:47 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Anything positive pisses me off because now more than ever, it feels like complete bullshit.
Forum: Why Me? March 30th 2020, 01:38 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I keep hearing about grocery store employees testing positive for COVID-19. No surprise at all. But now I'm more afraid to go to the grocery store than before... and I will need to go more frequently...
Forum: Why Me? March 30th 2020, 01:33 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Skipping online recovery meetings because I can't stand everyone saying how grateful they are that they don't have any health problems during COVID-19, and that we should all be grateful for our...
Forum: Current Events and Debates March 27th 2020, 05:28 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

No one is following the stay at home order.
Forum: Current Events and Debates March 25th 2020, 07:12 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

My county goes into mandatory lockdown tomorrow. One other county already did, and another will this week too. The state hasn't shut down yet though.
Forum: Current Events and Debates March 24th 2020, 05:02 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

We find out in a few hours if the state will lockdown. I'm not in a good place mentally.

TW:
Trying to come to terms with the fact that if I'm already infected and don't know it, I could die in a...
Forum: Why Me? March 23rd 2020, 09:31 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Bought groceries today. It was hard finding food for myself as a disabled person. Each person wearing a mask is a threat to me--they are either sick and likely to get me sick, or they acting...
Forum: Why Me? March 21st 2020, 01:11 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Once again clinging to the darkest media I can find. Sometimes that's the only way I feel understood and connected. Sometimes this is my only light...
Forum: Why Me? March 21st 2020, 12:03 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I might not get through this after all.
Forum: Why Me? March 20th 2020, 11:32 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It's confirmed that I will get paid less (not enough) for who knows how long.

Do I have higher chance of dying from it? Do I even care?
Forum: Current Events and Debates March 20th 2020, 12:53 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

I'm terrified of not being allowed to work. Will still get base pay, but it isn't enough to live off of without hours of overtime per week, every week.

I'm also immunocompromised. I know I'm at...
Forum: Why Me? March 20th 2020, 12:45 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

After all this work to stop wanting to die, am I finally going to end up dying anyway?
Forum: Why Me? March 17th 2020, 03:19 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I'd have killed myself by now for sure if I didn't have people I love and care about. Still want to. All the time.
Forum: Why Me? March 17th 2020, 03:15 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Fuck. Life.

Everything I try to do to take care of myself as things keep getting worse (crazy how that's even still possible at this point..) just fucking blows up in my face and pushes me down...
Forum: Why Me? March 12th 2020, 11:22 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Every cancellation because of the coronavirus is more financially terrifying.
Forum: Why Me? March 12th 2020, 12:54 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

If I get the coronavirus, it better just kill me. Since the forced quarentine would put me out of work longer than I can afford.
Forum: Current Events and Debates March 11th 2020, 11:16 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

I'm most worried about not being able to work, so no income for bills, necessities, and student loans. Oh and also my concern with being on immunosuppressants is that since I'm more likely to get it,...
Forum: Why Me? March 11th 2020, 11:12 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My only concern about the coronavirus is not being allowed to work, so no pay, so I can't pay bills. Oh and I'm immunocompromised and unconcerned. Stop spreading panic by being stupid.
Forum: General Health March 9th 2020, 01:32 AM
Replies: 4
Views: 11,441
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: ADHD medication

I don't have the energy to research those specific meds right now (I did take an advanced college bio elective on drugs though).

But different stimulants have different mechanisms. Even within the...
Forum: Why Me? March 9th 2020, 01:22 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I feel like hell, and this could just be normal for the rest of my life.
Forum: Current Events and Debates March 7th 2020, 09:23 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 32,937
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

I'm not concerned, and I'm on immunosuppressants (humira specifically), and there was a confirmed case near me. For reasons everyone said.

Also don't buy face masks unless you are sick; they don't...
Forum: Why Me? March 7th 2020, 09:19 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My body hates me oww
Forum: Why Me? March 4th 2020, 11:16 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My debt has me considering suicide
Forum: Education and Careers March 2nd 2020, 11:41 PM
Replies: 10
Views: 12,811
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: College dorm or stay at home?

It depends on a lot. You should do what you think would be best for you. I had to pay for housing because my school was hours away. Lived in a dorm first year, then got apartment with friends. I...
Forum: Money Matters March 2nd 2020, 11:29 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 9,589
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Hopelessly in debt

I'm currently on RePAY, and I calculated what my payment will be when they rerun the numbers in a few months now that I have a full time job. That number is doable, but I'd never pay it off. Did the...
Forum: Why Me? March 2nd 2020, 11:20 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Took a sick day for once in six months because my flare up got so bad that I couldn't push through it. Had worked 36 hr in 4 days, and not only did I lose overtime pay rate for what should've been a...
Forum: Why Me? March 2nd 2020, 02:29 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I miss my life, and I have no hope of ever getting it back.
Forum: Money Matters March 2nd 2020, 02:22 AM
Replies: 6
Views: 9,589
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Hopelessly in debt

Thanks, but I'm already working so many hours every week (and disabled) that I don't have any spare time and energy, especially not for a third or fourth job.
Forum: Money Matters February 28th 2020, 11:38 PM
Replies: 6
Views: 9,589
Posted By Tigereyes
Hopelessly in debt

How do you cope with being hopelessly in debt? Like $30,000 (or more) in student loans. I know to focus on one loan at a time. I'm barely earning enough to get by without loan payments. Relying on...
Forum: Why Me? February 28th 2020, 10:48 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Yes just fucking charge me over double the cost at this closer pharmacy because I'm too disabled to drive out there to get my fucking prescription so I can feel very slightly less disabled. Just add...
Forum: Why Me? February 22nd 2020, 10:32 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Anxious that my parents might've found a way to go through some of my stuff and found something out about me.. even though I don't live with them anymore and I'm 24.
Forum: Why Me? February 22nd 2020, 02:41 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Ah yes, I'm faking my chronic illness symtpoms to no one since I live alone. Which I shouldn't.
Forum: Why Me? February 20th 2020, 10:23 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I wish I had killed myself years ago.
Forum: Why Me? February 20th 2020, 10:19 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

The light at the end of the tunnel can't be a train if there is no light at all.
Forum: Why Me? February 1st 2020, 09:23 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Got hit with an unexpected $700 medical bill for labs. Fuck that. I can't pay it. Or my student loans. I regret wasting money on college. It wasn't worth it.
Forum: Why Me? January 29th 2020, 01:42 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I want to enjoy life, but I can't do that while in so much debt, with so little pay, with so many hours to work, with so much fatigue, with feeling so sick. So why bother pushing myself day after day...
Forum: Why Me? January 19th 2020, 09:36 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Killed my caffeine tolerance two weeks ago, but still, no amount of caffeine will do anything to reduce this fatiguw. It's down to my muscles, but it's just depression right? Even though I'm not...
Forum: Why Me? December 16th 2019, 09:49 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I don't believe in hope anymore. And I can't accept help because I'm used to not having support.
Forum: Why Me? December 16th 2019, 09:06 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I didn't expect to live long enough to deal with these problems. Guess what, maybe I won't.
Forum: Why Me? December 6th 2019, 09:27 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

The light at the end of the tunnel turned out to be a train. Oh well, I've been ready to go for years now anyway.
Forum: Why Me? December 5th 2019, 11:03 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It doesn't get better, and neither do I.
Forum: Why Me? November 28th 2019, 02:15 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Tomorrow is my birthday. All I want is for everything to miraculously turn out okay or to not wake up at all tomorrow.

Instead, I'll probably get yelled at then end up crying alone in my room. Not...
Forum: Why Me? November 28th 2019, 01:44 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I'm still financially fucked, but now, differently too. Work is so expensive when you're poor. Only internet friends to offer emotional support, parents can't afford to help much financially. There's...
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2019, 09:44 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

...i'm too sick to live alone..
Do maid services exist for disabled people?
Too bad i cant afford that if so.
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2019, 01:34 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Fatigue so bad. Still
Always. It never gets better.

If exploring life is my reason to live, and I don't have energy to do that, then why live?
Forum: Why Me? November 12th 2019, 11:35 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm terrified. If it ends up badly, I'm fucked.
Forum: Why Me? November 12th 2019, 11:01 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

And again, why am I still alive? Why did I keep fighting so long for things to turn out like this?
Forum: Why Me? November 5th 2019, 09:37 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Something feels wrong. I don't know what, just that it does. Perhap it's all the emotions I've been burying over the past couple years trying to resurface once again. But if I give in to my mind,...
Forum: Games and Things September 23rd 2019, 11:53 PM
Replies: 10,497
Views: 531,244
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

I don't fucking get it! I'm so confused and hurt and angry. Was that supposed to be another lie or a change in plans? What about last night--what did you mean? Are you using me until you find someone...
Forum: Why Me? September 19th 2019, 12:18 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I don't know how I'm going to get through tomorrow. Let alone the rest of this week. And next week. But I was desperate enough, so it's my own damn fault.
Forum: Why Me? September 13th 2019, 02:33 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

The truth is, I'm still struggling. I've never felt so lost before. I don't know what to do, where to go, who I am, or who I want to be. I'm just wandering in the dark, with no one to guide me. I...
Forum: Why Me? September 5th 2019, 02:27 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It was so much worse than I thought.
Forum: Why Me? September 3rd 2019, 09:35 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I desperately need therapy. Wish that was possible right now.
Forum: Why Me? August 6th 2019, 02:01 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I've been trying to write about the trauma from the past however many years to heal from it but my brain just tries to bury it deeper every time I do. So how am I supposed to face it? How am I...
Forum: Why Me? August 5th 2019, 12:12 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Staying alive a day at a time right now; that's honestly the best I can do for now
Forum: Why Me? August 2nd 2019, 11:35 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

It's so weird and wrong to have all my responsibilities, freedom, and privacy suddenly stripped away again after 4.5 years of living independently. I turn 24 in a few months.. stop treating me like...
Forum: Why Me? August 2nd 2019, 02:16 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I couldn't go to the huge networking event. The anxiety was too much. Depression too. I know I'm a disappointment. This time it is my fault. But fuck it all anyway. Not like I'll get a job...
Forum: Games and Things August 2nd 2019, 02:05 AM
Replies: 10,497
Views: 531,244
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

I really need your support right now. I know you can't offer it to me. So I really don't know if I'll make it much longer. I love you, and I'm sorry.
Forum: Why Me? August 1st 2019, 12:00 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Making my first student loans payment of a few hundred today or tomorrow. Still don't have a real job. I hate my current job with my parents, but I can't afford to not work for them, and I'm...
Forum: Why Me? July 31st 2019, 12:03 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Yes, I can struggle through one day at a time to stay alive.

But why the fuck would I want to keep doing that where there's no light at the end of the tunnel?
Forum: Why Me? July 31st 2019, 10:38 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My severe anxiety has mostly gone away because I've given up hope, so I no longer care about the outcomes.
Forum: Why Me? July 30th 2019, 10:53 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

What if I don't want to stay alive? Sure, maybe there are a couple good moments, but the neverending bad far outweighs the minimal good in my life.
Forum: Why Me? July 29th 2019, 12:06 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

These are the worst self-harm urges I've had in years, and I know I can resist them, but I don't know that I want to this time.
Forum: Why Me? July 29th 2019, 11:12 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I promised myself I'd hold on until the concert next week.

Now I'm not sure I can even make it that much longer. I'm sorry...
Forum: Why Me? July 28th 2019, 07:20 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

In danger of my parents finding out I'm queer.. I can't leave the house. I want to die even more.
Forum: Why Me? July 26th 2019, 12:42 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Too burnt out to care that I have another second interview. Never seem to get past the second interview anyway, so why bother getting my hopes up just to be let down again. I'm beyond hopeless. I...
Forum: Why Me? July 25th 2019, 12:04 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Would you rather me die than take a few days off?
Forum: Why Me? July 24th 2019, 12:19 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Too sick to care what happens to me. At least that means no anxiety. Unfortunately, I still can't do the things anxiety prevented me from doing.
Forum: Why Me? July 24th 2019, 11:21 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Starting every day with fatigue level 8-9 out of 10, which only gets progressively worse. But I'm just lazy.

Also student loan payments will be due starting August 2nd, which is apparently less...
Forum: Why Me? July 24th 2019, 02:12 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Fuck job searching.
Forum: Why Me? July 23rd 2019, 05:41 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Feeling worse every day. My body can't keep up. Doesn't matter how hard I try or how much caffeine I take. Nothing works. But clearly I'm faking my symptoms because I'm not quite sick enough (at...
Forum: Why Me? July 21st 2019, 09:30 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Tried something new to improve my shitty life and failed. So now I want to die even more.
Forum: Why Me? July 20th 2019, 11:18 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

This migraine is killer. On top of everything else.
Forum: Why Me? July 19th 2019, 06:43 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I feel numb to the job search and so fatigued and physically sick.
Forum: Why Me? July 16th 2019, 12:18 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

4 interviews for 5 positions this week, which would be great if I wasn't too dead exhausted to focus on anything. I'm too numb to care right now.
Forum: Why Me? July 16th 2019, 01:03 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Fuck that bullshit. I'm not allowed to be exhausted after ANOTHER 12 hour day after 2 weekends of moving out of the apartment and cleaning the damn thing mostly myself with over full time hours...
Forum: Why Me? July 16th 2019, 12:55 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I'm supposed to unlearn my survivor behaviors to heal and grow, and I know I've made progress because now I'm in multiple situations that require my survivior self to stay alive but I'm having a hard...
Forum: Why Me? July 15th 2019, 11:16 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I wish I "looked sick" enough to qualify for a day off. Referring to my parents, not a job. Not sure how I'll get by if I ever get lucky enough to get a job. I need stronger than caffeine to treat...
Forum: Why Me? July 11th 2019, 11:09 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

My body feels so weary and heavy..
Forum: Why Me? July 10th 2019, 01:16 AM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

"I shouldn't have to bully you into making you feel good about yourself."
Maybe don't fucking bully me?? It only makes me feel even worse about myself than I already do. Shocking, right?
Forum: Why Me? July 9th 2019, 10:45 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

No more...
Forum: Why Me? July 8th 2019, 05:59 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm really losing hope fast. Not that I had much to begin with.
Forum: Why Me? July 8th 2019, 10:52 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

This weekend was absolute hell, and I feel like I was run over by a truck. Phone interview this morning (probably?) That I'm not ready for, and I'm already too anxious to focus. I need to rest. Nope.
Forum: Why Me? July 5th 2019, 07:12 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

No clue how I will find the energy to move and clean the apartment with minimal help all this weekend. Not to mention, someone apparently left it worse than when I was last there, but I don't know...
Forum: Why Me? July 5th 2019, 06:11 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

The first hell weekend is here..
Forum: Why Me? July 3rd 2019, 12:03 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Desperately need a multi-month long nap.
Forum: Why Me? July 3rd 2019, 11:02 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Starting this day with fatigue level 8-9. I have so much to do, but I can't afford the time to rest. Not to mention, I'll get yelled at by my parents for hurting them by being lazy. They'll say to...
Forum: Why Me? July 2nd 2019, 12:07 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Things are so bad, and I really just want to hold my cat.. But he's gone. He's been gone. And he's never coming back.
Forum: Why Me? July 2nd 2019, 12:05 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It's not fucking fair! I want to be happy for you, but I'm jealous that you get the easy way out when I'm suffering so much alone because you won't support me.
Forum: Why Me? July 2nd 2019, 03:49 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Yes, there are moments I feel okay, even good, but that doesn't take away the pain and suffering I feel the rest of the time.
Forum: Why Me? June 30th 2019, 05:05 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It's nearing the date.. and everything just constantly keeps getting worse with no hope of ever getting even slightly better. I've waited long enough. I'm done.
Forum: Why Me? June 29th 2019, 05:07 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm losing hope. Have to make plans for moving back into the house because the other lease ends in 3 weeks. I can't get another apartment because I still don't have a job. It's too late..

I can't...
Forum: Why Me? June 28th 2019, 10:33 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Apparently I can't do anything or go anywhere without being interrogated by my parents. I'm 23... please stop.
Forum: Why Me? June 28th 2019, 12:16 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Panic already setting in and interview doesn't start for another hour and 40 min. I need a couple benzos or alcohol or something. Anything
Forum: Why Me? June 28th 2019, 10:38 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I have a phone interview test thing that I feel super underqualified for. I can't do phone interviews or tests. It's in less than 3.5 hours. I don't have anything to treat my anxiety and my parents...
Forum: Why Me? June 26th 2019, 11:56 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Fuck everything. Contemplated suicide today. I can't live in this house with my parents and go to work with them and have them hovering over me constantly as I try to get a job (and in general)....
Forum: Why Me? June 25th 2019, 10:26 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

The only thing worse than a phone interview or an exam is a phone interview with exam type questions during it. Need a ton of benzos, but don't have access.
Forum: Why Me? June 24th 2019, 05:20 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

No amount of caffeine works anymore. Just reduces withdrawals. But it doesn't even stop withdrawals anymore.
Forum: Why Me? June 22nd 2019, 08:52 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm ready for this to end. One way or another. I need out of this hell.
Forum: Why Me? June 21st 2019, 08:11 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Everyone is getting job offers except me.. they've all barely spent any time or effort applying. They don't have tens of thousands of dollars in student loan debt. they don't need to move out of an...
Forum: Why Me? June 21st 2019, 02:05 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Fatigue is the worst it's been in half a year but I can't sleep. Not that sleep would fix it, but sleep deprivation doesn't help either.
Forum: Why Me? June 19th 2019, 12:09 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't focus on the job search anymore. I just want out. And if I don't get an offer soon, I'll have to take my only way out. Thing is, I don't want to. But I can't go on like this anymore. I'm...
Forum: Why Me? June 18th 2019, 11:51 AM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I have to reapply to like 75 job posts ASAP because the website deleted all of everyone's information.. Plus apply for the normal amount of jobs. If there's even any point. It's been 4 months. ...
Forum: Why Me? June 17th 2019, 02:22 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Applied to over 260 jobs... still fucking zero offers... I need money to move out of this house before I kill myself.
Forum: Why Me? June 15th 2019, 12:47 PM
Replies: 2,305
Views: 83,847
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

If I stay, I'm a constant problem. If I go, I've fixed some problems and created others for you. And myself, but at least if I go, I'd have my freedom back..
Forum: Why Me? June 15th 2019, 12:45 PM
Replies: 10,894
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 495,418
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Getting out of an abusive situation is actually quite often a privilege... because if you don't have a financial means, good fucking luck.
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