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I suppose it might... I really haven't a clue tbh...
Thanks honey Your support means so much to me... I don't know what I would do without you
I'm going to go to bed... I really need sleep, the lack of it really isn't helping, I just don't want tomorrow to come y'know...
I'll remember that Thank you! I'm here for you also!
Xxx
p.s. I love you sooooooooooooo much!
Xxx

BUt everyone else has resons for feeling bad... I have a perfect life... I have awesome friends... people that care about me and im so sheltered its un believeable! I do generally eat healthy its just so expensive and I have to make sure I have enough for each day. In general we have not much snack foods which is good... but my nan left crisps in my room from when she stayed and its so tempting... Im taking my other stuff into school for my non veggie friends And when walking Ill slip it in I just hate hurting her feelings!
I have such a stomach.. it was flattening but its getting bad... really don't know how to solves it... it just won't flatten!Im not perfect... I'm never going to be perfect and Im heading for hell...
I know it's stupid, they're just kids and I wont see them in a few years bbut I dont know... I hate it...
I'm not sure really... or school doesnt have a pastrol care thing so I never know who im meant to talk to... Mum says she'll write in if it gets too bad in a few weeks but i hope it calms... i guess I need to get through these next few weeks... but I have a tough couple of days on my hands... really not sure if I can get through tomorrow and friday mornings...
Xxx

i love you, thank you xx

I love you moarrrrrrr <3

I don't know what's wrong with me... I feel crazy...
I don't know why I feel so terrible which makes me feel so much worse because I feel like I'm being stupid and just looking for attention and stuff... And I've done terrible things today... I ate so much... I feel so hungry though... I don't know why... I've been careful not to starve myself, to eat lots of healthy food... I've eaten so much fruit and veg, but also having a biscuit to mute cravings... but then I had to eat because I was too hungry... and mum bought me sweets and I had to eat them but they weren't veggie but I couldn't hurt her feelings and make her think I wouldn't eat them because she spent money on them and she doesn't understand that loadsa stuff has gelatine in them... So I feel unbelievably guilty that I ate animal and I have all my building problems, the fact I'm completely overloaded with work and although I'm almost on top of it I like having nothing because the stress gets me down and I don't have time to run anymore so I'm going to get fat and slow and I love running and I have physics tomorrow which is stressing me out and although i have drawing paper it still is horrible sitting completely alone...
And now I feel so bad that I've rambled on over nothing... It's completely irrational and not right...
Xxx

Ok
I guess I should cuz I did need the pain, it's a small hole in my hand...
I'm fine... I have to be fine... It made the bad stuff go...
I felt much better after and it was the quickest release...
How are you?
Xxx <3

Okay.

I love you so much

How comes?? <3

That's good
Um.... does scratching count as SH?
Like would you go back to re-counting after scratching?
Xxx