TeenHelp - Entries for August 2009

A little rant to keep me going

Posted August 24th 2009 at 11:19 PM by maddy (SH)

Wow.It's been a while since I've come on here,and even longer since I wrote to my blog.And no,it's not because I haven't needed the help,it's cos I didn't want it.The day after I posted my last blog,my Mum found out I was self harming.She walked in when I was about to do it,I hid my 'tool' of course,but she could see I'd been crying and we talked for what seemed like forever,when she asked me 'You haven't been self harming,have you?' and I just cried and said sorry I don't know how many times.So...

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Wow, It's Been a While.

Posted August 23rd 2009 at 08:37 PM by SpiderHan03

I haven't posted a thread or anything in here for a while because not only have I been super busy, but I've also been happy. For the first time in sooooo long. Here's what's been going down with me:

1. I have stopped self-harming due to an insane realization the other night. But that is another story for another time. Or maybe another blog for tomorrow.

2.Me and the guy I'm in love with are together once more and I could not be happier.

3. Me and my dad...

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Living for God

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College: Day 1

Posted August 19th 2009 at 10:17 PM by s_tor_m (Mentality of Tor)

Today I had my first class of college...psychology. I didn't expect much, I mean what first day is anything but going over course outlines and all that jazz.

So the teacher started going over what we're going to be learning about, and I can already tell this class is going to be pretty interesting. There's a whole chapter about repressed memories and another on social anxieties. Just from her reading the outline, my mind went a little crazy and I couldn't think straight.
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Dont know what to do

Posted August 19th 2009 at 09:44 PM by Liz94 (my thourghts and feelings let out)
Updated August 19th 2009 at 09:49 PM by jessie. (Please do not post weight figures anywhere on TeenHelp. It violates the Terms of Service.)

OK so im going on holiday on friday and im not looking forward to it cause it means I cant have time on my own and I wont be able to escape and walk/ cycle in the fresh air.
Also my parents and sister think ive been SH free for 4 months when I last cut yesterday. This means that they think that im happy and over my depression which is an utter lie.

The only reason why im going is because we will be doing alot of massive walks so I will be able to loose wieght as ive balloned...

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Here I go again

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I don't know what to do.

Posted August 19th 2009 at 06:01 AM by Kootie

Everything seems to be happening at once.. My boyfriends acting really weird, in a way he's never acted before... All of my friends are really stressing me out with their problems, and I just don't know what to do about it anymore... Its driving me up the wall... And to top it all of, all my mom does since my little brother got home from my dads place, is freak on me for stuff I've done in the past week while he sits on his x-box all day, and does nothing around the house, and yet I still get yelled...

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But at least

Posted August 18th 2009 at 08:00 PM by s_tor_m (Mentality of Tor)

Life is good...at the moment. Not necessarily great, but it's good.

Classes start tomorrow, and I'm a little nervous about it. But at least I'm actually getting to go to school this semester.

I kinda messed up my leg the other day, and it's pretty ugly. But at least I still have my legs, and all 10 fingers and all 10 toes are accounted for.

The paint job on my truck is uneven, and the only station on the radio with music I get is some oldies christian station....

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Yesterday

Posted August 17th 2009 at 04:29 PM by Liz94 (my thourghts and feelings let out)

After managing 1 hours sleep I went on the bike ride and completed it stopping of for lunch at a pub.

Whast peddling I released everthing that was bugging and triggering me.

It felt so good.

When I got home though I realised I had bad sunburn at the top of both arms this has made my scars there show up badly making me self conscience.
Also I was exhausted and feel asleep watching TV which got mum worried.

I enjoyed the bike ride but...

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Here I go again

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NO SLEEP YET

Posted August 16th 2009 at 05:16 AM by Liz94 (my thourghts and feelings let out)

Ok so Ive been trying to get to sleep since 10:30pm it is now 6:09am and I havent slept a wink.

The reason for this is because I have been trying to and suceeded making it to 25 days of SH freedom.

During those hours I have read tried to sleep come on this site work through probs and distract myslef tried to sleep. Listioned to some carming music tried to sleep come back on here try to sleep. Well you get the picture.

The problem with this is that at 8:00am...

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Here I go again

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Im confused

Posted August 15th 2009 at 02:54 PM by Liz94 (my thourghts and feelings let out)

Ok so this summer hols ive got eating back on track and excercised in moderation. In doing so gained half stone.
I havent cut for 24 days.
Ive been going out the house with my family
Ive been texting friends.

But inside nothing has improved I hate how fat and ugly I look.
The urges to cut are so big and occur everynight its getting harder and harder to beat them.
Im putting a smile on my face which is fake.

This isn't right my doctor friends...

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Here I go again

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New truck! Well...new to me anyway.

Posted August 9th 2009 at 03:15 AM by s_tor_m (Mentality of Tor)

Actually, it's not even new to me. It's been parked outside my bedroom window for the last 22 years. That's like my entire life plus 5. What is new to me, though, is having the possession of the key. Which makes the rust and ugliness of it not-so-ugly anymore. I don't know why that is.
My dad told me a year ago that I would have a vehicle for my senior year. Well, I'm graduated, and a week away from entering college and still having to say "Mom, do you need the car within the next 30

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