Oh my, its been a while since I've wrote on here. I don't even remember the last time I did. Guess it doesn't really matter.. All I know is that there has been a lot that has happened since, and I feel that if I write it on here where none of my "friends" know where to find it, then it wont some how get turned around and bite me in the ass. I don't know where to start with my problems. I don't quite know if I should write them, but I have to get them off my chest and I'm finding I don't...

So, I went back towhat I do best...The things that I stopped for a bit, but I can't handle this anymore...It scares me because I feel like I'm doing so many things wrong. I'm depressed, and I don't want to sleep. But I have to sleep so I can get through work. My best friend lives with me, and she told me that I need professional help, so she is pretty much saying that I'm fucked up in the head. And sorry if my mood changes all of a sudden...I didn't sleep much last night. I really don't know what...

Havent been here in weeks. I guess today is the first time i stopped running around the place and actually sat down. So i kept myself super busy. Losing myself in everything else. Forcing myself to stop dwelling on how bad i was feeling. But now its time to stop running, energy buzz has finally worn off and im tired.

So god damn tired.

Just back from my therapist. I think thats what made me stop and sit down. According to her im running myself into the ground.
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The title kinda says it all. This weekend has been amazing and at the same time just as confusing. I know in my head that I dont need to fear that which is scaring the shit out of me. But in my heart I just can't stop. It's stupid I know, but I cant stop overthinking things,(ironic huh?)

First of all I drove 9 hours to meet my girlfriend.
It was kinda what I was expecting, but there were a few differences lmao. She was a lot less shy then I expected.

Idk maybe...

He doesn't know i exist and I am kinda getting tired of it. I want to be noticed...

oh well i think i like someone else... even though it hurts that he talks about other girls

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