everything isnt the same anymore. nobody is. its just sad. it makes me just wanna curl up ina ball and die. i may seem like a happy person on the outside , but thats only because of my medicine.
on the inside. im hurting. i cant eat. i feeel like im going to puke everytime. i can hardly even eat a grilled cheese anymore without wanting to puke. i know this is all about help , which this is what im trying to do.
i've been in 2 programs for depresssion and just got out of Harbor Oaks...

December 15, 2010.


She feels unwanted and hated for many reasons. she feels stupid and useless with everything she does and says. she makes everyone feels like crap because of what she says and does. she cutes, just to feel the pain. it lets her know that she can still feel thing. she doesnt reallly feel anything besides sadness/hurt. cutting is her only realif most of the time. music is her only escape from teh world. she does have friends but she never sees them , which makes...

It seems quite a few people are starting this challenge, and I want to add it in myself. This is going to be a great next month, or so I hope. I am going to have fun with this, and I hope others will, too.

Day 01 – Introduce
Day 02 – Your first love
Day 03 – Your parents
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment
Day 09 – Your beliefs ...

Aparently you can't put prefixes on blogs, oh well, I tried my best ahaha...

This is a vent I just did, also posted in the screaming thread, thought I'd post it here since it's pretty much a blog entry in my eyes... Get ready >.>


I've fucking had it honestly!~ I ahte being alone, I hate having to lay in my room in the dark by myself. I hate it! I hate seeing you with that guy, I don't even know him but I hate him because he has you and I don't! I just wish...