what do you do when your own mother tells you to give up? when she tells you that she has no faith in you? do i completely shutdown? cause that is all i can do right now.

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I feel lost without him.

And definitely an almost anorexic.

Those are my behaviours right now anyway. And my thoughts.

I'm just not at the right weight to be counted as one yet.

But I'm getting there.

And I don't even care.

I want to die
I can't fucking cope
So down
Don't see the point of living

Things are slowly getting better.
I haven't cut since Thursaday.
Alan is talking to me again.
My sister Steph is talking to me again.
The play we're doing is in two weeks.
Th CASHEE is a day before.
I have friends.
I have eniemes.
I have good grades. Makeing A's.
But something is still wrong.
No, it is not because I do not have a boyfriend or romantic love.
I think it is because I miss them.
I miss my Dad.
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