It's hard...
Now that Bryan and I are over for good. (Thankfully there's some sense there). But I feel empty. I feel like a crybaby. And everyone else NEEDS me for advice, or help.


You so strong, Hope.

No, I'm not. I cut my thighs everyday, cry myself to sleep.


Or..maybe Ii am strong, with the smiile plastered to my face.


Seeing othee peopl happy is what makes me live.

That's right, ladies and gents. Yesterday was six weeks since I last.. how do I put it. Since I last broke skin intentionally. I'd say cut myself, but I do that all the time without meaning to. I'd say hurt myself intentionally, but I did that about 5 weeks ago.
Basically it's 6 weeks free and those 6 weeks have flown. I think it's a good thing that I don't even really think about it much and haven't been eating less or wanting to overdose instead. I'm actually quite proud of myself if you...

I'm so selfish its unbelievable.
It's not right.
I can't believe some of the stuff I think.
I like to think I'm a good person.
I like to think I'm a nice person.
But I'm not. That much is obvious. If I was nice, I wouldn't think evil things.
I'm such a bitch.
I'm so ashamed of my mind I can't even say it out loud, I can't even say what I think.
Someone should come and kill me.
I need to be killed before I become well, I suppose like Tom Riddle....

Got a letter from college this morning. They've sent me a fucking invoice for £1285. I don't HAVE that kind of money. It's not like we have a bank account with 1200 quid to spare just sitting in case we need it. The reason for them sending me this? According to their information, SAAS aren't paying my fees. Actually, we don't know if they are yet because my application from over a month ago is still going through. They could at least have the common decency to wait until SAAS tell them whether they're...

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Everything was doing so good. But then I realized, The one person I trusted with everything doesn't give a fuck about me anymore. I don't know what to do. She literally knows everything about me, she got me to trust her, acted like she cared, and now when I need her, she's gone.
And Leda's pregnant, who knows who the father is but I'm an idiot so I'm going to end up babysitting the kid all the time and practically be its dad. I can see it happening.
Oh joy.

I have been cutting myself for almost 6 years now. But, I have been clean for about a month. Yay!
I started because a "friend" told me that it would help me feel better. So, I tried it. I just needed something to take the pain away. And it did. Everytime I did it, I became numb. It felt good. If I didn't do it deep enough, though, I would be in pain. So I have always made sure to cut deep. :\

1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it?
3. What is your motivation to recover?
4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not?
5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
6. What about it do you enjoy?
7. list 10 activities that help you calm down.

8. What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?

9. Have you ever...