Today was amazing.
I went to Leda's house. It seems like its been so long since I saw her last. We went to the movies I almost cried when it was time to leave, but I'm allowed to visit her more often now. And she's allowed over.
And I told Jamie that I fell in a rose bush and got those scars. He almost cried, I feel bad about lying but its for the best. I played video games with him for awhile And he started to talk to Bill and Debbie a little !
I'm also trying to...

I'm falling apart right now but i can't let anyone see that. I have to keep it together somehow but its getting so much harder to fake a smile and pretend that everythings ok. I guess i have no choice though. I have to be ok...I am ok. If i say it enough times maybe i'll believe it. Who knows.
I'm just not coping at all at the moment. I'm on a self destruct mode and noone seems to even notice. I suppose i...

I've eaten too much today, way too many calories, I can feel the fat building up inside. Need to burn it off, need to exersize and move and make it get out, stop the weight.

I've put on weight since Monday, don't know what to do, too tired to exersize, just want to curl up in a ball and sleep, musn't stop moving though! I had too much last night, chocolate and booze = weight gain!

Must do something, think I need to cut, musn't let myself do it! Musn't let myself give...