Should never have sent that text. Should never have said anything to her. Said to much. She hates me now. Well congratulations Emma, thats another thing that you have messed up.

Can't stop thinking about the past. I'd give anything for things to be how they were. To have her back in my life. To have my dad here and not with that idiot. To see her happy again. To have not started self harming. To have never told her about this.

Can't stop these thoughts. I can't control...

Feel so low right now. Don't care about anything anymore. resorted to pills this morning at like 4am just so i could sleep. Took to many but oh well who cares.
Think i'd have probably just walked infront of a car or something last night if it wasn't for someone amazing. Thanks beauitful, you know who you are. <3
Feel so dizzy and fuzzy. Just want to hide away and sleep. Preferably never getting up again. Feel so pathetic and horrible. Want to feel something other than this pain. Wanttogobuypills....

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