Sat here crying....again. Feel so pathetic. Today hasn't been to bad. I feel low and still want to feel pain and OD so badly but i forced myself to leave the house, met up with some friends. Had a few laughs. Decided that it would be a good idea to have a wheres wally themed party and everyone dress up a wally Made me laugh. My sister may have it for her birthday

I'm not sure how i feel right now. Thinking about things, everything seems so messed up. Feel shakey and horrible....

So Hailie's been really pissed off at me lately, The first time she spoken to me in 2 days was this morning to ask me if I could watch her baby sister Dani for an hour. Me trying to be a good friend said yes, Its now 12 hours later, She hasn't come back yet. I'm nervous to just put her to bed and leave her, cause I'm scared she roll of the bed or something. Dani has no bed, no carrying thing, nothing. Just some food and diapers. And the crying, She hasn't stopped in hours Me and Blake have to...