Burning shivers and silent screams. Contradictions of my mind and body and surroundings that are some interrelated disconnected cyclical chaos.

See? That was ridiculously wordy and made no sense. But it’s still exactly straight the words from my head.

Writing lately, that’s what I’ve learned. It’s that when I let my pen exactly write my thoughts without clarifying or translating to real people phrases and expressions, they come out right somehow, but still fundamentally...

This past week was my first week back at school. Felt like shit the whole time. Acted like i was happy, yeah right. Pushed anyone who asked if i was ok away. Just tried not to get noticed.
tried to kill myself again. No one found out. Luckily. I just wish everyone would forget that i existed. Im worthless.
Im such an idiot. I actually believed i was getting better. Im not going to. Im hopeless.
I hate myself. Even a 7 year old me there is something wrong with me, and my...

I don’t know how to get through this week. It’s going to be incredible hard. There’s only one thought in my head right now, “Kill yourself Emma.” No one even cares. I don’t want to be alive anymore. I’ve pushed everyone away and I have nothing left. I don’t even have a reason to fight now.

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TeenHelp Newsletter #22 - January 15th 2012 - http://www.teenhelp.org

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