I've never been this low...
Even when it was bad, at its worst..
It wasn't like this..
And this is a good day..
I managed to smile today...
I can't think of a reason to carry on...
I hate everyone, everyone hates me...
Can't remember the last day I didn't cry...
I don't see a future, I hardly see a tomorrow...
How can I keep going like this? I don't even know if I want to keep fighting

Something is not right.
Apart from my Im back message I haven't posted in the forums.
I think I've forgotten how to help people...
This is unacceptable.
I am unacceptable.
This. Must. Change.

Had the best day ever yesterday at a Medical conference. I got to learn loads of clinical skills as well as them talking us through our personal statements and which medical school to choose.

I've decided that it is 100% what i want to do at uni, just need to get the grades and stuff now :/

Hey people.

At a youth conference, it's actually ending. I'm in sexuality, so that's a WIN. I'm in it with that friend that pisses me off, and I was the one that invited her. Want to know some of the people I've met? -I can put their names because, 1, I'm not putting their last names..

Lyric: Hot gay guy, has hair the same length as mine, is crazy tall, nice, funny, make up artist and a DJ, 14, like me! and, he's just really fun to be around. Long nails.
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I hate you.
I hate how you ignore me.
I hate how you never ask how I am.
I hate how you show no interest in me.
I hate how you say you love me but never show it.
I hate how you talk to me about other girls.
I hate how you made jokes about me being an 'emo' when you saw a scar on my wrist a year ago.
I hate how you never tell me anything important.
I hate how you never open up to me.
I hate how you go on and on about things you know...