Keep forgetting to take painkillers for my wrist. Result? My wrist is sore and achey.

I still have the ringing in my ears. It gets louder and quieter but it's still there. I've had it for about three weeks now. Sometimes it gets really frustrating. Sometimes I hear pale music, or murmuring I can't make sense of. Not very often though.

I don't think the ringing is related to my illness. I do, however, think it has something to do with how I'm sleeping, and when I find...

Tonight has been super frustrating. Been fighting with my mom, just getting upset over anything. I tried to calm myself with lavender spray, helped a bit. But still felt just overal bad. So I then of course got a bad urge to cut, almost did (was so close) but I stopped myself. I am feeling a lot better now. I am strong enough to get through the urges. I won't give up at least not today.

Eye-contact is a bitch. Right now, I pretty much struggle to do it - at all. I'm sure all the people that I'm only just meeting must think I'm strange, but when I'm low, or coming out of a low, I feel quite anxious in social situations, and making eye-contact actually scares me right now, it makes me feel excessively vulnerable.

On the bright side, I have a move date! It's most likely going to be next Tuesday (the 24th of July) and I just have to sort out some financial stuff with...