TeenHelp - Entries for January 2013

why does it always have to be this way???

Posted January 5th 2013 at 09:24 AM by gremlin

Parents stop and reject you.. Give you hell becuase you can't sleep your so depressed, don't help you or support you through your hardest times.. Supposedly great friends that "love you" decide and tell you they won't bother you anymore or talk to you when all you need is a good friend and a few reassuring words and maybe possibly a hug... Never asking for much but always made to feel like a slave chasing after people... I'm so sick and tired of all of this.. I need to leave but I can't...

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So I googled

Posted January 5th 2013 at 08:47 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

The physical symptoms of depression.

Guess what? Messed up sleep, headaches, nausea, and diarrohea are all on the list, as well as exhaustion/fatigue. Messed up appetite is on there too. I really need to find a way to weigh myself to see if my weight has changed.
Guess what? I already suspected I was low, and this just confirmed it for me.

It's the 5th today. My next appointment with Judy isn't until the 18th, and Leisa doesn't come back until the 21st. I'll...

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Awesomesauce.

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Happy (belated) New Year!

Posted January 4th 2013 at 05:37 PM by Koharuchan (Haru's Crazy Thoughts)

Tags fun, games, party, sleep, year

Yaaaay, it's the new year! Unfortunately I've been too busy to come online the last few days. I hope you guys didn't party too hard on New Year's Eve.

I partied with Jon and his family, and it was nice. They had a big fire in the backyard and we made smores!

Unfortunately there wasn't enough chocolate for everyone because he has such a big family, so Jon managed to grab the last of the chocolate and he gave me half of his.

After that we went over to where his brother was...

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New Year Resolutions and Steps Towards Them!

Posted January 4th 2013 at 02:54 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck

So it's New Year, obviously. And I have some things I want to do this year:

Pass my driving test.
Move out.
Eat better.
Be happy with myself

So, simple enough resolutions but all are time consuming which is why I don't have more than that. And I'm doing well so far.
I've booked a couple of (very cheap) driving lessons with the AA to get a second opinion on how I'm doing. My last instructor has given me over 30 lessons over the course of 10 months. According to her, I'm nowhere...

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too much...

Posted January 4th 2013 at 02:41 PM by gremlin

I don't know what to do anymore... I'm so depressed, I can't feel better, I don't find joy in anything I used to really love.. Everything just seems to get worse and worse and its making such an impact on me... I'm on medication, but its not helping anymore... And it feels like I have no purpose or need to be here and that the entire world would just be better off without me...

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Life.

Posted January 4th 2013 at 07:27 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

Went to pharmacy, picked up meds.
Went to supermarket, bought a loaf of bread.
Bread has gone up 10c. Lame.

Just standing outside having a smoke just now, thinking to myself -

What if I'm not actually unwell? What if I really just want attention? What if I'm not actually suicidal, I just want somebody else to take care of me? I don't know man. I get really depressed, but is that real? I get massive urges to do stuff, but doesn't everybody? I'm really
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Awesomesauce.

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I'm breaking but no ones around to notice *trig

Posted January 3rd 2013 at 05:24 PM by Riddikulus

Having such a bad time lately, family and friends stressing me out. no one talks to me properly anymore, it's either to have a go at me or moan about someone or something.

I feel so alone and worthless

People say i'm strong but i know i'm not, I'm breaking but no ones around to notice

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The magic word... expelliarmus

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When you feel so tired, but you just can't sleep . . .

Posted January 2nd 2013 at 10:04 PM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

Well, it's very broken sleep, and I'm tired all day. I've been having afternoon naps, where I fall asleep just enough to have those weird dreams where you're not entirely sure if you're dreaming or not (my mind likes to tell me I'm in different houses, for some reason), and then you wake up. Gives me maybe an hour extra sleep on top of what I'm getting at night, and I have no idea how much that is, I just know I wake up a lot.

I saw my probation officer today. She didn't ask many...

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Awesomesauce.

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Going to relapse.. trig

Posted January 2nd 2013 at 09:27 PM by Riddikulus

I'm not strong enough, it's too hard.
I really need this, I don't think tonight is going to be a good one :/

Stupid stupid stupid, need this

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The magic word... expelliarmus

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So. Tired.

Posted January 1st 2013 at 09:22 PM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

So, the nights have cooled down somewhat (think 17 - 20 degrees instead of 21 - 24 degrees), and I've actually been sleeping. Admittedly it's very broken sleep, but it's a hell of a lot better than not sleeping at all. Last night was also one of those nights with too hot, too cold, and so forth - my flatmate had the same problem so it was definitely the weather and not just me.

My left arm really aches. Yesterday whilst fetching a drawing pin to hang my new calendar, I happened to...

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Awesomesauce.

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