I've had such a rough few days, I need people so much and there seems to be no one around.
Last night I drunk way too much and hurt myself badly. So this morning I ended up sitting outside A&E crying until a nurse came over and asked if i was okay, then I just said I was fine and left.
I'm so stupid and pathetic, I couldn't even bring myself to walk in. I'm in so much pain but I'm too scared to do anything.
I deserve the pain, I deserve to die.

Hey everyone its been forever! I might come and check in every once in a while, i miss you guys! <3

So i'm doing pretty good. I think i am recovering for sure now. I feel so much better, stronger, and like nothing can take me down. I have amazing friends who care right now. I'm beginning to see myself as pretty, or at least trying, with the help of my best friend, lets call her S. Who is always there for me. And everything i'd want in a friend. She has helped me so much.
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