I can't sleep. I'm too scared to sleep. It's hard to even describe what I'm afraid of. It's just this ominous feeling of bad things if I sleep. And it comes and goes and I thought I'd beaten it but it's back and I can't sleep and I'm so scared and this is gonna really fuck up the year for me if it continues.

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I don't feel stable. I need to drink. Or cut. Or something. Both. Ugh. I feel so empty.

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