i woke up with my hands hurting so much and a splitting headache. This does not bode well for the rest of the day. I try not to take painkillers but I think I might have to. At least my pokemon mystery box arrived. I have a new plushie and a bunch of stickers and some pokemon finger puppets and other stuff

I'm going to catch up on some uni reading. I'm going to attend my lecture. The parcel for my rats arrived so I can give them a bath and put up their new tubes and climbing stuff. I'll probably do that tomorrow though when I clean the cage out.

Last night I played d & d for the first time. It was a lot of fun and for 7 hours I actually felt happy. So long as I kept talking. When I stopped interacting with people I felt bad again.

Also I brought my rats down to see...

i'm not depressed im just a stupid kid who's stupid stupid stupid so i dont need my meds im never going back to get more i dont need them and if i do end up killing myself its not becaise im depressed its just that im a stupid kid whos just stupid

I don't want to do this anymore.

This semester has been overwhelming and I have taken on too much and I'm so overwhelmed and just. I'm always busy.

One professor is an asshole. But I'm not as concerned about him.

My geology class. Two tests coming up and I'm going to fail both of them. One's a lab test Tuesday and one's a lecture test Thursday. She drops the lowest lecture exam grade so I'm really tempted not to show up for class at all.

I haven't...

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I finished my dissertation proposal. I still don't feel great, but I do feel like a weight has been lifted and I can breathe again. I currently don't have any deadlines coming up. I have a gap where I can study on my own time, enjoy my lectures and try to help myself improve my mental and physical health. Before too long there will be more deadlines, and I need to meet my tutor and my supervisor soon, but other than that I have a break. I'm implementing a new routine to try and pull me out of the...

I have five hours to finish my dissertation proposal. Wish me luck? I'm actually feeling reasonably confident about it for the first time this year which is a pleasant surprise after how awful the last few weeks have been. I'm halfway through and I need to write another 1000 words, but I have a load of literature still to review and a methodology to write so there's plenty to put it. I shouldn't have too much trouble with it. I can do this. I've still failed a module, but if I can do this then...

i feel like im nothing more than a list of diagnoses. i'm nothing more than a list of reasons of why im a fuck up. im nothing.

im tidying my room. the plan is that i can't die with a messy room. dont know what im gonna do once its clean. i need something else to stop me from doing something stupid. despite all the doctors and psychs and therapists ive seen i still dont know how to reach out for help.