Life sometimes wins. Today was an example of that for me.

I woke up and it was like any other day and then it started. First it is the panic then the wanting to cry, and then finally the self-harm urges and it has been hard not to give in to them but so far I have. Today was a day that I thought would be fine, I did not do much so why would I go into full meltdown mode. and writing this I still don't know.

But after today I am dreading the Christmas period. I can...