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So although life has not been easy since I last talked but I kept on walking and am still here.

My teachers have been making my life pretty hard recently and it was not till I broke down to my counsellor and she sent an email out that anything changed. My teachers still have not told my parents about the change to my physics course and with parents evening next week, we will see how that goes. But tomorrow I send off my application to university and so at least I have started to look...

So I have not been on here for a while, a combination of feeling like crap and back to school stress. But since back to school madness has stopped now I felt like I should come back.

Coming back to school this year has brought nothing but stress for a number of reasons. 1. This is my last year in formal education, I apply o go to university this year. 2. At the end of the last school year I had mocks and failed both maths and physics so I have had to change corses, now because of...

For 6 years I have been battling self-harm, relapsing every couple of months. It was never something I thought I would turn to but is what I ended up using. In the past year, I have been working on myself more but the self-harming habit was one I could not get rid of. At a Christian camp called Soul Survivor this year I was praying about it and felt that God was telling me to get rid of my tools and that I could cope without them. I did not believe him so ignored him, but he would not leave it and...

So I have just started a new job and am currently half way through it. It is event catering and this job is a 4 day event. Being new not knowing anyone is definetly not helping. Almost everyone here smokes and drinks.and it seems like that is the only way to socialise I don't drink or smoke so feel left out. I am also not as quick today while serving after having my confidence knock yesterday and I have gotten pretty good at knowing when people are talking about me behind my back and seeing my...

So life is still winning at the moment. I am on holiday with my family at the moment with hardly any internet and no signal miles away from home and am hating every moment of it. On top of that things are still awkward between me any my dad. My ex-boyfriend and 'best' friend has started dating a girl who he used to go out with (this girl almost led him to comit suicide and if it was not for me and another friend he probably would not be here today) and there is nothing I can do about it because...