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Life Kicked But Today
Posted December 17th 2017 at 07:41 PM by SunShine2002
Updated December 17th 2017 at 09:01 PM by SunShine2002
Updated December 17th 2017 at 09:01 PM by SunShine2002
Life sometimes wins. Today was an example of that for me.
I woke up and it was like any other day and then it started. First it is the panic then the wanting to cry, and then finally the self-harm urges and it has been hard not to give in to them but so far I have. Today was a day that I thought would be fine, I did not do much so why would I go into full meltdown mode. and writing this I still don't know.
But after today I am dreading the Christmas period. I can already see that it is going to be a living hell. I just hope that I can keep resisting the urges because I don't know if I could stop once I started again and that sucks because I just want to go back to when I was younger and I was happy because life was so much easier then.
I woke up and it was like any other day and then it started. First it is the panic then the wanting to cry, and then finally the self-harm urges and it has been hard not to give in to them but so far I have. Today was a day that I thought would be fine, I did not do much so why would I go into full meltdown mode. and writing this I still don't know.
But after today I am dreading the Christmas period. I can already see that it is going to be a living hell. I just hope that I can keep resisting the urges because I don't know if I could stop once I started again and that sucks because I just want to go back to when I was younger and I was happy because life was so much easier then.
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I am sorry your day was difficult. I don't know if this works for you but when I am having a bad/difficult day I will try and get to bed early in hopes that the next day will be a bit better. Sometimes sleeping helps me to calm down from the overwhelming emotions and I get a bit of a break.
I know the holiday season is difficult for a lot of people and I hope that it passes quickly enough for you. Maybe you could find something to do that could distract you from the upcoming holiday?
If you ever want to chat feel free to message me.Posted December 17th 2017 at 08:59 PM by
