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Lost In a Faceless crowd

Posted August 31st 2010 at 03:22 AM by Aidanlaiysaon

Im wandering theese streets, They all start crowding in.
They stare down at the pavement, Nobody looking up, Im staring alone, my walls wearing thin.

They walk in a line, I can't seem to keep up.
Where do they all come from, why do they not look up.

I follow all those helpless souls, they drown there heads with sorrow, The blackened broken sky, Ahead, the rain slowly follows.

I yell, I try to catch there attention but they can't ever hear me...

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Me

Posted August 31st 2010 at 03:17 AM by Aidanlaiysaon

My Heart beats fast and silence fills the air.
My body sinks into the sheets, Holding back the tears.
The door swinging open I try to keep it in.
Trying not to make a noise, Though I know that I'll give in.

My mind losing focus, My lungs catching fire.
I can't keep it all inside, My throat clentching tighter.

You grab me by the waist and throw me to the floor, Yell and scream at me, until I can't take it anymore.

You hit me and shove...

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Anybody

Posted August 11th 2010 at 05:18 AM by Aidanlaiysaon

Does anybody have A blogger account?

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[Triggering] Nothing Left to Lose

Posted July 20th 2010 at 07:14 AM by Aidanlaiysaon
Updated July 20th 2010 at 06:38 PM by Briana (adding triggering label)

Tags abuse, self harm, self hatred, sorrow, worthlesness

Tear me down and break my soul
take my life, Im spinning out of control.

My knees are weak and scraped to shreds.
My wrists black and blue from being tied to the beds.

My body wretched, sliced by a knife.
Someone please just come and take my life.

My mouth torn open, throat sore and dry.
I want to scream, please just tell me why?

My blood bleeds black, You stole my heart.
Took it and just ripped it all apart....

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[Triggering] Another night

Posted July 20th 2010 at 03:30 AM by Aidanlaiysaon
Updated July 20th 2010 at 04:52 AM by Briana (adding triggering label)

My hear races as your walking in the doors.
Im afraid.

You just give me that sadistic look.
Making my flesh crawl.

My arms being twisted behind me.
I can feel my body being bent over the bed.

Grasping the matress trying to escape your
forceful grip.

Suddenly I feel It.
A sharp pain in my side.

A needle pressed into my skin burning me,
stinging.

Whimpering in pain.
I still...

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Her.

Posted July 20th 2010 at 02:26 AM by Aidanlaiysaon

From the moment I saw your beautiful blue eyes glisten, I knew.
I knew you were all I wanted.

The way you laugh is adorable, The cutest thing I have ever heard.
Its so contagious.

The way that you long brown hair flows over your shoulder, slightly touching your face in the wind.

Theres more to you than just good looks.
More than just your stunning body.

Its that way that you talk to me.
You speak so gently, you have...

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[Triggering] Let me Bleed.

Posted July 20th 2010 at 12:29 AM by Aidanlaiysaon
Updated July 20th 2010 at 04:51 AM by Briana (adding triggering label)

Tags abuse, self harm

Im Sitting here again.
The bathroom floor is beggining to feel more comforting each time.

My wrists laying at my sides.
The blood that stains the floor beside me.
I did it again.

I know what you all think.
How could you?
are you stupid?

I can't help myself.
If you only knew.
The sharp rigged edges that pierce my skin is my only escape.
My getaway.

Feeling the cold turn into burning heat.
...

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Im sorry

Posted July 20th 2010 at 12:19 AM by Aidanlaiysaon

Tags abuse, fear, self worth

Your eyes are burning through my flesh.
I can't speak.
Im stuttering, choking out the words.
Im afraid you wont like what I say.
That I'll speak of something you didn't want to hear.

You'll get mad.

I constantly try my hardest to please you.
I always seem to fail.
I just don't understand what you want from me.

I swallow hard trying to force myself to walk into the same room as you.
I am so scared that you will hate...

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[Triggering] 3 A.M.

Posted July 19th 2010 at 09:59 PM by Aidanlaiysaon
Updated July 20th 2010 at 04:40 AM by Briana (adding triggering label)

Tags abuse

I lay in bed curled tightly.
I pull the covers over my face.
I can hear your footsteps on the stairs, I cant help but stare at the clock.
The flashing lights telling me the time.
3 a.m.
Its time.

I try to calm myself, I try not to breathe so loud.
I can feel you in my room, Im frozen.

The red blanket that once covered me, slowly moving backwards slightly grazing my neck, intensifying my fear.

Your touch is gentle at first...

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I surrender

Posted July 19th 2010 at 09:46 PM by Aidanlaiysaon

Tags abuse

You tell me that Im worthless, That I am just trash.
Thats exactly what I feel like.
You don't care about me, All you care about is the pain you put me in.

You tell me that you like to hear my screams, you like to see the tears pouring down my face as in choking trying to catch my breath.

My bodys torn to shreds.
Its been twisted, broke, and bruised.
It feels as if a thousand razors are trying to escape from my insides.

I want you...

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